I tried to get the images from my toturing school years and stated thinking about now. I had Louis Tomlinson and he liked me despite my past. And now we could "hang" out more often without worry. Cause we were going to eventually tell them about us but not now.
"Becca, tomorrow lets go out to the park." louis said smiling at me as i sat down on the couch.
"That would be fun Louis, but aren't you worried about your fans?"
"No they think we are just friends no reason for them to hate or be worried." he sat next to me as he turned the lamp off. i cuddled up next to him and just continued thinking about the hate i was receiving from his fans as i fell asleep. The next morning i woke up in Louis room but he wasn't there. "where is he" i thought to myself. Then i remembered that we were going to the park today so i got uo took a shower and got dressed in http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=90076710 i wondered to myself if i looked okay but i figured i did. I walked downstairs and i could smell food. Louis was making Breakfast he made sasuage and eggs.
"Well Good Morning Beautiful" he said when he seen me.
"Good Morning, it looks Yummy" i said staring at the food.
"Yeah it is done so you can go ahead and eat." I smiled and we started eating together and then he wrote a note to the guys saying that we would be gone for the day. Then he grabbed his keys and we left for the park. We arrived and it was stunning.
"Well lets go." he looked at me and smiled
"Remember out here we are just friends." i gave him a serious look . After an hour of walking he told me he had to go to the bathroom. i said okay he left for the bathroom . i was getting a lot of nasty looks i tried to ignore them but then i heard someone yell at me
"Look there is the whore who is hanging out with one direction." when i heard that it crushed all the self esteem i built up and i felt horrible. Then another one walked right up to me and threatened me. Then this girl walked up to me
"You are such trash the fact that you get to hang out with Louis when all you are doing is leeching them all even your own brother. You are nothing but a no good whore." and walked off i sat down on the nearest bench and cried i couldn't believe this was happening I just cried and cried. i didn't realize someone had sat beside me.
"Rebecca, are you okay?" Louis asked concerned.
"yeah Lou i'm fine but i think i seen enough of the park can we go home?" i didn't want to tell him about the hate. i didn't want him to worry.
"Yeah sure come on." he said as he helped me up. The ride home was quite we got home and we talked a little had some tea and then i went upstairs. i got on my phone and checked my twitter i had a lot more hate from his fans. it was driving me insane. i was so upset. i rushed into the bathroom i frantically searched through the cabinets i found it i took it apart to were i just had the blade and jabbed it in my wrist slowly cutting through my skin. The pain shot throught my arm and i could feel the blood rush down my arm physical pain was the only thing that could distract me from the hate and thought all i could thin about was the pain as a tear rolled down my cheak. i heard the door open.
"R...Rebecca what are you doing?" louis looked straight at me i could tell he was upset just by the look.
"Lou i just.. i just coouldnt take it anymore." i looked at him and tried to plead with him mentally.
"I am telling your brother!"
"NO lou please don't tell him not now not with him being in the hospital." i begged him
"how many?" he gestured towards my wrist "Rebecca How many?how long?"
"2, and not very long, please don't tell, Lou please." He just looked at me then bowed his head.
"Okay i wont but only because i love you." He looked at me. No one had ever done that for me before no one.
