20.
I had been with Damien two month now, and things were going great, I still hadn't spoke to Liam but I made polite talk when my dad was around because I didn't want to ruin his relationship with Vanessa.
It was now Monday and I had school. I woke up and ran straight to the bathroom, I threw up.
I quickly had a wash and gargled some mouthwash.
I walked downstairs and I couldn't even look at the food Liam was eating before work so I decided I would wait outside till Lucy picked me up.
***
We were now on the way to school.
"You look pale, nightmares again?" Lucy asked.
"No, I threw up this morning." I replied.
"You ok?" Lucy asked she looked a little worried.
"Yes, I am fine. Me and Damien had a pizza last night, maybe it didn't agree with me." I replied.
***
School had dragged and it was now dinner time. I was sat next to Damien and Lucy and Drake where sat with us. They were all eating but the thought of eating made me feel sick. Damien offered me some of his fries and I felt like I was going to throw up.
"No thanks, I need to go to the bathroom." I replied before jumping up and running to the girls toilets. I got in a cubicle and quickly locked the door before throwing up again. Once I felt a little better I walked out of the cubicle and swilled my mouth out with water, when I turned around I saw Lucy looking at me with a worried expression.
"Wow that pizza did make you ill." Lucy replied and I didn't like her tone of voice.
"Yes."
"Karly, have you had your period this month?" Lucy asked.
I didn't mind Lucy asking this because we were best friends and talked about everything but the question shocked me a little.
"Of course I did."
"When?" Lucy asked while raising an eyebrow.
I thought about it and went to reply but nothing came out.
"Me and you are usually on within a few days of each other, I have just came off." Lucy stated.
I didn't reply.
"Maybe I am late." I moaned.
"After school we are going to the chemist and are going to get you a pregnancy test." Lucy blurted out.
"Wait, what?" I was so shocked.
"You need to do a test."
"I am not pregnant." I replied.
The bell rang so I quickly walked out of the toilets and headed to my last lesson. I didn't pay any attention at all. My head was all over the place.
***
School had ended and I gave Damien a quick kiss and told him I would phone him once I got home so he could come over.
I walked to Lucy's car and we didn't speak Lucy took me straight to the chemist and walked to the counter and bought a pregnancy test, Lucy shoved the tests in my bag and then pulled me back to the car. I was in shock that I didn't speak.
"Ok, do one of these as soon as you get home. Do you want me to come in yours with you?" Lucy asked.
"No, I will be fine, I will call you." I replied. I was still in shock.
***
I was now in my bathroom and had one of the tests in my hand; I finally built the courage up and peed on the stick. I put the test on the bathroom counter.
I zipped myself back up and splashed my face with cold water before grabbing the test. I didn't want to look. I was so scared. I finally looked at the test to see two lines.
"Oh no" I thought to myself.
I quickly checked the back of the box to double check, and the double lines where positive which meant I was pregnant.
I put the test in the bin in my en suite bathroom; I grabbed the spare test and shoved it under my PJ's in the draw.
***
Damien was now at mine and I didn't want to tell him just yet, it still hadn't sunk in for me, it didn't feel real. I was so scared and shocked.
"You ok, you keep zoning out?" Damien asked.
"Yes, sorry I just feel sick today." I moaned.
"Aww come here." Damien said while grabbing me for a cuddle.
I hugged Damien and tried to fight back the tears that were trying to escape. I slowly pulled away from Damien and grabbed his hands but I couldn't look him in the eye.
"Damien?" I said with a shaky voice.
Damien looked at me worried.
"I don't want to do this but I think it's best if we go back to just being friends." I said while biting my lip to stop myself from crying.
Damien pulled his hands out of mine and cupped my face.
"What? Why?"
"I err-erm think it's for the best, you make me happy you really do and I love you with all my heart but I am not ready for a relationship right now." I replied without looking at Damien.
"I don't get it Karly, what's brought this on?" Damien asked and I could hear the hurt in his voice.
"I am sorry Damien, please just go." I cried.
"No, not until you explain what's brought this on." I could see the tears in Damien's eyes and that broke my heart.
"Damien, please I need time alone, please just go." I cried.
Damien looked at me and I could see he was fighting back tears, he kissed me on my head and ran out of my room.
I sobbed my heart out.
I couldn't ruin Damien's life, I was keeping this baby no matter what anyone says and I didn't want Damien to think he was being pushed into something he didn't want to do just because he loved me, even though this had broke my heart I had to be without Damien.
I lay on my bed and cried for a good while. I heard my phone buzz, I checked the caller ID to see it was Lucy, I knew I had to answer it or she would come over here and I didn't want anyone here right now.
"Hello."
"Hello, did you do the test?" Lucy asked.
"Yes."
"Results?" Lucy asked.
"I am pregnant." I said as the tears slipped down my face.
"Oh, I am so sorry; I will support you with your decisions." Lucy sighed.
"I am keeping my baby."
"Have you told Damien?" Lucy asked.
"Me and Damien are over, Damien doesn't know I am pregnant, I want to do this on my own, I don't want to ruin Damien's life. I really need to go now." I sobbed before putting the phone down.
***
It was now 7pm and my phone had been beeping like mad with texts and phone calls off Lucy and Damien, in the end I got fed up and turned my phone off.
I was a cow, I had broken Damien's heart and I didn't even give him a good enough reason.
I cried so much, I finally fell asleep crying.
