Traveler of the Sky // Shawn Mendes

Feelings

I end the call, and make sure it actually hung up this time. He just heard all of that. He just heard how I let everything we've ever done effect me. He just heard Abella say I'm in love with him, which I am not. He just heard our entire story being told to a fangirl. Why is he even calling me? He walked out on me, he didn't even walk out because he didn't come in the room. He stood out in the hall. He walked away.

 Yes, fangirls have been asking me how Shylar has been, it hasn't. Shylar isn't real, and it never will be. I'm not a fan but, but girls like me don't get with guys like him. He's famous, I'm not. The fan girls don't appreciate when their idols get girlfriends either. I don't think I would be able to handle all of the hate, not to mention the hate I'm already getting on Twitter just for hanging out with him in London. How would they react if we were together?! 

"Um, Skylar. Are you okay? You've been pacing around the room for about half an hour now," Abella asks me. 

"No, I'm not okay. Shawn just heard you say that I'm in love with him, which I'm not. But you said it, and he heard it! He heard your french accent, so now he probably knows I'm in France! What am I going to do? I told you what happened! Why is he even calling me in the first place?!" I yell out. 

"Maybe he missed you. Maybe he wanted to talk to you. Maybe he wanted to talk about his feelings with you. Because I think there is definitely something going on between you two. Whether you both know it or not. I can see it, and obviously the other fans can see it since the hashtag ShlyarLondon was trending the other day on Twitter. You should call him back and see what he wants," Abella tells me, handing me my phone. 

"Abella, I will call him back, but there is nothing going with me and Shawn, so that's out the window," I tell her, grabbing my phone out of her hand. I pull up our Facetime call, and re-dial. 

"So, Sky," Shawn tells me, with a blank expression on his face. 

"So, Shawn," I say, using the same expression on my face. 

"Where are you? I'm sorry about everything that happened in London, but I'm on a three week break in France with a show at the end of my break. Where are you?" He asks me. He's already in France? He's here? He must've left London early then. I just look at Abella for help but she doesn't say anything, she just has this shocked 'O' look on her face. 

"Shawn, I'm going to have to go, I might call you later," I tell him then I hang up the call. 

"Abella, he's in the same hotel as me. The room on the call looks just like mine. Just not my room. He left London early if he's already in France," I tell her. Kind of freaking out. 

"Okay, so my inner fangirl really wants to come out right now because Shawn Mendes is in the same hotel as me right now. But I'm not going to do anything drastic, I'm just going to jump and down for a minute and demonic noises may come out of my mouth for a moment," Abella tells me. She was right about the demonic noises coming out of her mouth. Maybe I should call her a priest? She stopped after about 5 seconds, so I decided not to call the priest. 

"Let's go looking for him!" 

"Abella that isn't going to be a good idea."

"Skylar, he called you Sky on the call, like that's his nickname for you. It's honestly really cute. I would kill for Shawn to come up with a cute name for me," Abella says. 

"I don't want him to know I'm here. I don't want to be here anymore. The last time something like this happened he walked away from me."

"If you don't have feelings for him then why do you care about him so much? Why does it matter if you guys are in the same hotel, let alone the same freaking country. Why is it bothering you so much if you don't even care about him?"

"I don't know, do you want to go down and order some pizza with me? Maybe we can pick up some of their movies that aren't on Netlfix," I ask. 

"Yeah, sure. Let's go down the elevator that Shawn might be on. Let's go into the lobby where Shawn might be at. Let's do all of that so you might run into Shawn."

"Abella, straight down, and straight back. No detours," I'm a little scared of running into Shawn, he might be down there already. Last I knew he was in his hotel room, but how do I know if he's on the same floor as me or going down the lobby in the same elevator as me and Abella. 

"Okay, whatever you say Skyllar," Abella says, walking towards the door. 

I really don't want to see him. I don't want to feel the tears fall, like I know they will. I don't want to feel attached to him again, because I know he will leave like Nash did. I don't want to hug him because I know I'll miss him as soon he let's go. I don't want these thoughts coming into my mind because I don't want to develop feelings for him. 

"It's a little late for that sweet pea," Abella says, out of no where. 

"What?"

"You were thinking out loud, it's okay, I understand what you're going through. But you are way past the "I don't want to catch feelings for him" stage. You might as well accept it now."

"I do not have feelings for him Abella," The elevator door just opened. We get off and start walking towards the desk, there's a guy around my height standing there. He moves to the side when the receptionist looks at us. 

"Hi, I'm Skylar, I'm staying up in room 808. I was wondering if me and my friend could order some pizza and movies?" I ask her. 

"Abella do you really think I have feelings for Shawn? I mean, I don't think I do, but isn't this how it goes in the books and movies?" I ask Abella while the receptionist is on the phone with room service. 

"Sky. You're here."