Bittersweet (Yuri GirlxGirl)

Chapter 11: One Year 「Chie」

Chapter 11: One Year 「Chie」

So this marks our one year of being together. Time passes by fast. I decided I want to surprise Yumi by making a short video of words from my heart, and me attempting to sing to her. I am not much of a singer so I was nervous. We had many small fights, but we always manage to come back together. We've even spoken of our future, and how she wants to marry me. I felt I could give the world to this girl. How can this happen like this? I love it really.

She surprised me with something similar. It was a video of her telling me how she cares and loves me. She's so sweet. I smiled.

Life passed by fast and soon I realized we hit almost two years. My mind was foggy. I was so busy with school life that I didn't have time for Yumi. Sometimes she would bitch at me about it, and I would get annoyed. I still stuck through. It would be silly to leave like this.

I saw that we fought more as the days passed. I loved her, but this isn't healthy. I kept thinking on what to do.

"You want to break up with me right?" She spoke freely.

"I think it's best." I said feeling hurt.

I wish she held me back. I wish she gave me reasons on why I shouldn't go. Why can't she tell me that she needs me? Why does she seem to be so fine without me. I checked her blog everyday. She seemed so fine. She seemed happy. I guess it was best to let her go. I was the one that let go, but why didn't she stop me?

My world seemed so black and white without her. At night I would cry thinking of all our memories. Her silly face. The way she tries to act so manly around me. Those random sweet moments she would tell me how she wanted to spend her life with me. I wish I could hate her. I grew distant ever since that one day on the phone. She told me she kissed another. She said it was when we were on one of our break ups. Why did it matter? Why did she do that so quickly? I had to break it off. A part of me wished that she would come back like always, saying sorry. I wished.

The next day I laid in bed feeling lifeless. I decided to write down the days of me not being with her.

Entry 1: I miss her yes. I am crying because of her. Why can't I hate her? Why does she have to do this to us. I never once did anything like that to her.

Entry 2: Still no text from her. I guess she is fine without me. She probably found someone else considering she seem so happy.

Entry 3: I see signs of her missing me, but why doesn't she text me? Why doesn't she say anything to me?

Entry 4: I wish I can hate you. I wish I can. You don't care for me anymore. I should stop checking your entries. It hurts me more and more every time I see you happy without me. I hate this.

I continued writing, but every day was the same old concept. Nothing new. I felt I just had to forget her. I felt I need a new person in my life to let me move on from her. Maybe that's for the best.

To Be Continued