Karushuu One-Shots (Karma Akabane x Gakushuu Asano)

Afraid

Song: Dollhouse (Inspired by the video attached.)

Note: I had already posted this but took it down after wanting to rewrite it. But I have decided to create a whole new book that is a bit like the start of this one-shot instead of rewriting this :)

*takes place on season 2 episode 5, after E class has defeated A class in pole wars*

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Gakushuu Asano felt his mask slowly start to crack when Isogai yelled that they have won. His eyes were wide, not in shock, but in fear. The same look was on his eyes as he stood there in front of his father in his office. His father was telling him how he had failed and although Gakushuu had expected this all along, he could feel his heart die a little and his mask crack some more.

"You're not fit to be a leader." Gakuho finishes as the foreigner talks Gakushuu up a little to his father. Gakushuu's mind fogs, knowing what was going to happen next. Much like Nagisa, Gakushuu was able to 'read' people. Growing up in the same conditions as Nagisa, Gakushuu has had to learn quick to know when his father wasn't pleased.

So the moment his father had challenged the foreigners, he could already sense Gakuho's mind become erratic; he was ready to kill. Gakushuu slowly backed up as the foreigners prepared themselves to attack. Gakushuu shook his head and clenched his teeth as he looked down at the floor; all the while walking backwards until his back hit the wall. Gakushuu didn't need to look up to know the results of what was about to happen.

And instead of looking up, Gakushuu slowly slid down against the wall as he heard the fight start. He placed his head in between his hands to try and block out the shouts of pain coming from the foreigners.

'I don't want this. I don't want to be here...' Gakushuu repeated in his head as the foreigners got beat up. He wanted to break down at that point, but not wanting to get beat up as well, he tried his best to control himself. And when his father started talking about his past experience in defeating a black belt, Gakushuu looked up. He was always taught to look at his father when he talked. But Gakushuu immediately regretted it when he saw all the bloodied and fallen bodies of the foreigners. Gakuho hadn't even broken a sweat. So when Gakuho had walked towards Gakushuu, he could only back himself up more against the wall.

"Neh, Asano-kun." His father started, placing his hand on the wall beside Gakushuu's head, making the latter tense up.

"If you lost, then why isn't the frustration eating you alive?"

Gakushuu's image of his father started twisting and turning to look more like a hideous creature than anything. He knew it wasn't happening, but it didn't help his situation nor did it stop the hallucinations from happening to him almost all the time.

'You monster!'

Gakushuu was dismissed soon after and he didn't miss a beat when he stood up and left the room in a hurry. He was about to leave the school grounds, wanting nothing more than to get away from his own personal hell. But just as he was about to, he was called over by the virtuosos for help on where to bring the materials from the games. Gakushuu bit his lip and had given them instructions, all the while attempting to keep up his facade. Just when he thought he'd get a break, he heard E-class call his name.

At the moment, Gakushuu's mind was already at a wrecked state after what he just saw. So he decided to end things quickly with E-class by saying he'll keep his word.

'Perfect. Just keep up the arrogant demeanor and they wont know what just happened.' Gakushuu thought to himself as he told Isogai that he'd definitely defeat them next time. He turned around and walked off with the other virtuosos.