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essay II → High School

High school. It's pressure. 8th grade in the second semester, is truly a stressful life to have. No one wants to deal with it. The subject is okay, not touchy. But then it arrives all of a sudden while you have to do this and that. Your world comes crashing down in a flash, school work suddenly seems terrible. You feel your life begin to suck immensely. Who can foresee the future before it comes? No one can. You just know it will happen. You see all of the hints and clues all of a sudden. Less than a week to figure out your schedule. You thought the middle school years were hard enough, try four more years. But it is different. You are thrown into the real world like a garbage can, with only a call of "goodbye! have a great life alone!". That is exactly how it is. I spent a whole bus ride with my friend talking about it, discussing the topics of high school, how nerve wrecking it made us all. We become the bottom of the chain again, prone to be judged and thrown under the bus. It feels as if it would be a whole new life instead of only just high school. It was thought that going to high school would be the best days of my life, yet i ache for it to not happen. The responsibilities pile into a cave, so far up I can't see anything else. The thoughts of school work consume a good amount of my days, reading becoming less of. You think you know what to do, but the more you think, the more you doubt. Doubt. A common thought, emotion, hold, everything in between. You should not let anything so negative hold something over your head, over your wisdom. The world may pressure you to be perfection, to never mess up a single day, but in reality of it all... You will mess up. Everyone does. It doesn't make you less of another, it makes you a human. Yes, high school is a huge part of your life. But don't let the thoughts of high school, and it standards, control you. You choose to take control or be passive. High school is the preparation of the rest of your life. It's only the outline, the movie trailer of your life. You now will belong to the sleepless nights, studying until you fall asleep, reading less, social interaction are hard to maintain. Life becomes difficult, but you do not give up. You find things that will make you happy, so you can get by. figure yourself out, don't get lost in studying nights, the long homework you hate to do. Listen to new music, learn new topics outside from school. Study enough, but not too hard. Smile enough when necessary, but learn to be able to be sad too. Learn to learn. Life gets hard, but it gets better. High school is keeping you in check with reality. It makes you independent with yourself, instead of dependent on others. Keep yourself above water, instead of getting lost in the waves. That is how I may survive high school. Just a glimpse of high school terrified me, yet I shall not let it scare me away. My character inside me thrives for this, as does it feel anxious equally. High school is like pressure. But not forget where you come from. Remember who you are, and who you want to be. Learn to evolve into that person.