Saved from a broken home

PARKS ARE CALMING

After we left Luke started up a conversation.

"Why didn't you tell me? I could have helped you." He said worried.

"I don't know I just thought you all would be mad or say it was my fault. And it was really awkward to talk about. Being that I lost an important thing by force that I wasn't supposed to be lost until I was married. And with a person I love."

I explained; which that was my plans.

"Don't ever think that you would 'get in trouble' for something like this. Also don't think that just because we are boys doesn't mean you can't talk to us about things." He said taking a breath.

"I love you daddy." I said on the edge of breaking into tears.

"I love you too. How about we get some food and go to the park?" Luke asked and I excepted.

"Parks are calming."
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We pulled up to a park down the road from our house and took in the view.

It had a little lake with ducks, geese, and swans chasing preteens who were teasing them with bread.

The day was sunny and honestly a perfect day for a park.

I got out with my pizza and sat on a bench a little ways from the car. Luke didn't follow because he was on his phone with I think his manager or something.

As I was enjoying the nice breeze that was blowing by a little toddler came and sat by me.

She had blonde curls that went all the way down her back, navy blue tights on and a light pink shirt that covered her bottom, and white flats.

She honestly looked so cute.

"Hi I'm Bailey, what's your name?"

"Sissy says not to tawk too stwanges." Se says in a cute baby voice.

I was about to say something back but someone yelling kaylee interrupted me.

I looked around to see who it was and I smiled a little. Tina.

"Tina over here!" I yelled and waved in her direction.

She walked over to her sister I guess and I.

"Hey how are you?" Tina says sitting beside kaylee.

Good, I was just hanging out with this little stranger." I giggled.

"Yeah try babysitting her for hours. I thought she ran away or something."
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A few minutes went by while talking to her then Luke came over and sat by me.

I introduced them again and we talked for a while about random things.

Sooner or later they had to go home because it was getting dark and it was a school night.

I actually did want to go home. I was cold and needed a warm bath.

Once we drove home I walked into the house and the boys bombarded me with questions and hugs. They were like are you ok? Are you hurt? And I'm sorry's and you should tell us things.

I answered everything then went up to the bathroom. I started the water and brushed my hair out while waiting for the water to warm up.

I got out of my clothes then slid into the tub.

I completely broke down. All the painful thoughts and memories I have, I just let go.

Music was playing in the background, so praying; I hoped nobody could here me.

I've changed so much over the time span of being in this house.

I was so angry. I needed to take it out on something. Me.

I got out of the piping hot water and went to the sink. Under it in the cabinet I looked around for a glasses case. Which held my cloth to clean my glasses and a blade.

I got it then settled down back in the water. I pulled the shiny, silver object out and looked at it. Twirling it in my fingers.

Is it really worth it. I've been clean for a little bit.

Goner by Twenty One Pilots came on and it reminded me of how worth it; it is.
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I go until I feel somewhat good about my feelings and lay back in the water.

About 15 minutes later someone knocked on the door and asked if I was ok. Michael. I guess I've just dozed off. That's not safe lol.
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I got out and rapped a towel around my frail body and walked to my room.

Going to my dresser I pull out a pj set I've had. It's pink and silky. I put that on and turn around to be pinned to the wall by Calum.

"You told and now you pay the consequences." He says.

No fucking way. I would never think that Calum Hood would be my rapist.

But for some reason I feel way different from the first time. Pleasure? No Bailey you don't want this. It's wrong, he's your brother.

Not by blood though...

No I can't.

He turns out my light and locks the door. Pulling me to my bed, he starts to touch me and it's a mixture of nausea and release. I want to cry.

When he's done, I'm crying and he speaks again.

"Why are you crying? We both know you enjoyed that."

I cried even harder and he let out a whimper. I was angry at myself for letting it happen. But we all know that I couldn't have gotten away.

He opens the door and checks the empty hallway.

I did cry myself to sleep that night. But for some reason I wondered why I was letting tears go past my eyes.
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WOW OK MAJOR PLOT TWIST I KNOW. THIS STORY IS SO DRAMATIC...

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