Broken With You

When Secrets Come Out

...next day...

So what now?

I don't know. Maybe we'll... I don't know.

What do you know?

That I want this to work. That I don't want to deal with secrets anymore. That I need to know something, just a little bit more about Jace.

Well then...what are you waiting for?

I don't know.

The next day we just hung out. I tried to mention even the thought of him letting me in to his life and secrets, but I would just end up staring into his chocolate eyes and just lose what I wanted to say. We went to the park and just talked about what we've been missing in each others lives. I didn't have much to tell him, but we spent over an hour talking about him. Not that I minded.

"My parents fought again. Over me, of course. I don't know why, but the thought of my future and what might happen with college funds...it just gets them riled up."

"I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when all of that was happening."

"It's fine. I get why you were avoiding me."

I stop walking and stare at him.

"But you still haven't told me anything. I know you're hiding things from me. When you zone out and stare at the wall or the ground. I see your eyes water, but then you see me looking and you act like nothing happened. I just...I just want you to know that you can tell me. I've told you my dark past and I've never told anyone about that. It was hard for me to share that with you."

"I know..."

"No you don't! I lo....really like you. But you make it hard for us to stay together because you don't let me in! Do you know how that feels. To be falling for a guy and then feeling like it won't work out because he won't tell you a damn thing!!!"

Woah...I think someone has reached their limit.

You're damn right I have.

Wait hold up, did you say that you were falling for Jace?

No. Of course not.

No, of course you did. You falling in love with Jace!!!

I shouldn't have said that. My little outburst was enough to put on my mind, but saying that I falling in love with him. That's probably going to make things even worse.

Jace is just staring at me. I'm breathing hard and trying not to blink a lot so I don't start crying.

"You're....you're falling in love with me?"

Of course out of everything I said he only hears that.

Do you blame him?

Kind of, yes!!!

I look down and once my breathing is down to a normal pace, I continue to walk and so does Jace. We stay quiet for the rest of the walk towards my house.

We're at my door. I nod at Jace as a thank you, because I can't find any words to say to him. He grabs my wrist while I'm walking to the door. I stay in place. Staring at the door. I turn my head slightly, signaling him to speak or forever hold his peace. Or however you say that.

"I can't tell you. I'm sorry, I just can't."

I look at him. Tears now coming out of my eyes. I push his hand off my wrist with my free hand.

"Then we can't be together."

That's all I say before I turn around, unlock the door, and run in my house.