Indescribable [completed]

Heartbreak

He then looked straight at me and said "Hey"

Well this is so not my area. What should I do when a gorgeous hunk talks to a useless rag like me? "Umm... Hey?" I replied uncertainly.

"I'm new here and I'd like you to help me out with this list of classes. If it isn't too bothersome, of course"

Bothersome? Is he kidding me? The fact that he is talking to itself is a miracle and he thinks that he would be bothersome. Wow.

"Well, I guess it'd be better if you asked someone else," I replied "I'm not the person that you should be seen hanging out with. It might cause you trouble."

At this point Mr. Burns turned to my side and looked straight at me, "Well Miss Sarah Knox would you like to share with the whole class what you and Mr Lovegood was discussing? And how is it relevant to history?"

The whole class roared with laughter at this, Bruce from the last row hooted and that made things even more worse. How was I supposed to know that his name was Mr Lovegood, Why Lovegood? Couldn't it have been something different?

"Sir, I was asking my way around the school as I am new here" said he.

Great... There goes the rest of his college life. Why did he have to say that? Couldn't he have been a bit more smarter and denied any possible connection with me? That way at least one of us would have had been safe.

Shanya the so called 'queen bee' Tsk-ed pitifully and acted like the bitch she was "Well Mr. Lovegood, you are way too hot for that hopeless thing. Why don't you join me and my other friends today for lunch and we might forget about this whole incident"

Typical of her, get the best looking and richest people on her side so that she would have minions every time she turned around. I just hoped that he wasn't that heartless to leave me alone, the chances were 99.9% against me but, a girl can hope, can't she?

"Sure" he replied smiling that charming sideways smirk of his.

Guess what, Sarah Knox does not even get the privilege of hoping. God, why are you this cruel to me? All my life I had avoided the in-group and when a guy had finally uttered a word to me that chance went as fast as it came. I think being lonely for so long had made me somewhat desperate and my brain was disfunctioning right now. I felt my eyes prick with tears as all the lines came crashing down on me.

I, being me, will NEVER EVER get a boyfriend. Haha, boyfriend? I don't even have a friend so how the heck was I supposed to get a boyfriend from? If boyfriends grew on tress I would have planted a seed daily so that my heart will be full, however, life did not happen that way.

I meekly asked Mr Burns permission for going to the toilet and excused myself. I didn't go to the toilet, but, I did go to the garden, under the wooden oak and seat myself there. It was my secret place. No one ever came here and whenever I wanted time with myself I would come down here. I had never felt this lonely ever before. A straight-A student does not be lonely, there might have been times in a teenagers life when it feels like you are totally thrown into darkness with a thick woollen blanket over your head. Suffocating and restricting you.

My entire life was like that. Suffocated, asphyxiated, restricted, smothered, and numb. Its killing on the inside. I have no one to talk with and even if anyone did like today for example, everyone else would be behind that person.

So, I cried my heart out and told the birds and the trees everything about me. Yup, I am definitely going mad.

The wind blew across the rolling green meadow and gave me a new energized feeling. Was it possible for me to be someone new? Can I actually do something good at life? Will I be recognized?

The bell rang that notified short break and students came pouring out of the classes. Even from such a distance I heard Shanya's laugh. Her bestfriend Jessica, who is equally obnoxious and disgusting, followed up with a horse-neigh like laugh which was joined by Olivia, the biggest gossiper in the whole world. Olivia knew everything. She knew who was dating whom, when is the new beauty queen pageant, which is btw only next year and even, why is Adam dating Lavanya. Long story.

Jessica is like a parrot. She repeats every single word that Shanaya says. When Shanaya laughs, she follows, when Shanaya talks about a new movie she goes and watches it and I bet that if Shanaya tells her to jump into a well she would surely do that just to show how obedient she is. However, Shanaya had her uses, Jessica's dad was one of the most richest businessmen and Shanaya was the one who spent half of his money.

How are they best friends even I do not know. I did know one thing though and that was what they were laughing about. Me. I think I could be a comedian two more embarrassing scenes like this and I could go and join the Jim Carrey show.

Mr. Lovegood or as Shanaya was calling him, Jake, had just transferred here all the way from New York. His parents had a chain restaurant business or something so it was obvious that he is rich. She was telling the other two about how she would be flirt with him and then leave him heartbroken.

That is definitely not right. It was embarrassing for him to push me away just like that but I for one didn't want him to get heartbroken because of some sick joke Shanaya wanted to play. Above all she isn't my most favourite person either.

I packed my bag and stood up. It had been a long while since I stepped into the canteen, but, this is a risk I am willing to take. For him. Whether he wants it or not.