(A/n this is my place to just write and let my feeling become a book so don't judge me okay?)
Mitch pov
Jerome left earlier and adam went to see peony. I was alone. I went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. I looked at my face my hair my eyes. The I looked at my wrists. Covered in past scars. I got a itching sensation. The kind I would get when I wanted to cut. I drew out my razor and looked at it. I know I promised Jerome I wouldn't cut anymore. I brought the razor to my wrist and made one slit going across from side to side. It felt so damn good. I made more cuts up and down both arms. I decided to stop.
I couldn't believe what I had done. It felt good but then the guilt hit. And it hit hard. I just wanted to scream. I cleaned the razor and took a shower. It was so quite in the house. I'd rather be with a friend I'll just call Matt (nootch)
--call--
Mitch: hey dood
Matt: oh hey
He sounded sad.
Mitch: hey are you okay?
Matt: y-yeah...
Mitch: imma come over ok?
Matt: y-yeah sure.
I grabbed my stuff and left.
Jerome pov
I just landed and already saw Jason. He greeted me with a hug and left his arm over my shoulder. "So how's the wedding panning going" he asked with a smirk. "Good good." I replied.
Me and Jason got to his place and decided just to get a pizza and chat. "So found any girl yet" I asked him whilst eating. "Well I found someone I like.."
"WHO" I yelled. "Well...." and he leaned forward and- and kissed me....
"J-Jason" he backed away blushing. "I'm sorry, I'm stupid I knew you wouldn't feel the same way" I could tell he was holding back tears. "No Jason don't be that way. It's just I'm engaged"
i felt horrible. I couldn't think of anything els so I kissed him.
He was tense at first but then he eased up. The kiss lasted two minutes or so. "Jerome leave Mitch for me....." I was confused. I felt feeling for Jason but me and Mitch were getting married in three months. "I-I don't know if I can" he looked me dead in the eyes. "Jerome I love you" I didn't know what to do. "I'm going to bed" and I got up. "What does that mean"
"Jason I love Mitch I'm sorry"
"Oh it's okay really"
I didn't want to hurt Jason I just love Mitch.
Mitch pov
When I got to matts house I tackled him with a hug.
"Woah hey there" he chuckled. I looked around his house was messier than usual. "So what's up" I asked plopping on the couch. "Oh um nothing" I could tell he was lying. I looked at his table. It just had me and Jerome's wedding invitation to him and a bottle of vodka. "Matt really what's up"
"Okay well the truth is Mitch.... I hehe well I love you"
I just stared at him.
"What??"
He chuckled and looked down.
"Ever since you moved here and I saw you in the hallway Mitch."
I couldent speak it was so obvious.
"That's why I was willing to make a channel with you and Jerome and pretend not to be jealous of him-" A single tear ran down his face.
"-You know I used to think that maybe you would like me back. That you and Jerome was a act to cover up your feelings for me. Hehe I would plan our wedding in my notebook you know the one I never let you touch. Then I relized that you loved him. And I just wanted to die. Just leave life..."
He wiped his tears.
"M-Matt why didn't you ever tell me?"
"BECAUSE MITCH WHAT WAS THE POINT" he started yelling "YOU WERE HEAD OVER HEELS FOR JEROME. I TRIED SUICIDE BECAUSE OF YOU" then he broke down tears streaming down his face. His breaths were coming in hiccups.
"Matt no-" I pulled him in to my chest. "-look at me" I pointed his head toward me.
"One day you'll find someone that's for you but I found Jerome and I think he's the one I mean hell I'm marrying him in a few months but please just don't die I need you as a friend."
"Just leave please and don't come back"
"But matt?!"
"GO"
And so I left.
Matt pov
I took out the razor and went for the wrists.
This one for Mitch
And these two for Jerome
Three more for merome
Five for Mitch
Six more for them both
Now carry on the other arm.
The flow felt so good. Almost to good. I could feel my self slipping. Into the cool refreshing darkness
"Bye Mitch I love you......."
A/n. Tbh I cried while writing then end! now what will happen next.
Hey I fixed the problem yay!!
