Sunday

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I wake up, somehow feeling worse than ever. How is it that I can feel something worse than infinite pain? I don't know, but it's no exaggeration. I get to the clinic Dr Schneider told me to meet him at. He tells me that he'll put me on the waiting list there. I tell him to do so just in case.

He gives me a prescription and says that I'll be feeling great in an hour. I drive to the pharmacy.

"Can I give you Truvalin?" the pharmacist asks.

"What's that?"

"It's a generic," he says. "It's exactly the same, but cheaper."

I worry that it won't be the same. I'm not motivated enough to have this conversation. He gives me the meds and I go to the car, get inside, and take them right away. I used to be on a variation of this. I don't know how it will help me in an immediate way though. I drive home. I lie on my bed, roll around. After an hour, nothing has changed. I take sleeping pills. I roll around on my bed. I miss my flight.

Greg Gelb is here. I must have called him. We're sitting in the kitchen. He makes scrambled eggs and does magic tricks for us. I appreciate his efforts.

Sobel comes over. I must have called him. He comes to my room and I lie in bed. I must have fallen asleep because I open my eyes and he's cleaned most of the room for me. This is not the worst day of my life.

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