Sotus: The Gear of My Heart [completed]

Chapter 4

Kongpob sat on the bed attempting to play the movie while Arthit was organizing his desk.

"P'arthit, do u want any snack? I can go downstair and buy them" Kongpob asked

"Um,..it's okay. I'm kinda full anyway"

"Or do you want to eat me" a grin started to crack at the side of Kongpob's lips.

"Kongpob, i swear i will throw you out of my room" arthit took a sharp breath crossing his arm.

"Just kidding p'! Come over here, the movie's starting" kongpob beckoned His arms to arthit

"Er! By the way, what kind of movie you're renting, huh!" He sneak is head over to the DVD cover. "I dont even get to choose. Hope you're not renting any porn DVD" he added

"But p'...you know u can just watch porn through the website instead of embarrass yourself at the dvd shop with all staff looking at you...don't worry this is just normal movies." he shook his head and smiled.

"I-i" he paused. Almost speechless because kongpob kept teasing him. Sometime Arthit couldnt stand it and just wanna kiss those lips Of Kongpob shut. "I Know that much, OKAY?!!" He pouted and climbed onto his bed next to Kongpob with his shoulder under Kongpob's arm and his head rested on Kongpob's shoulder.

"P'...your cheeks are so soft and chubby!" Kongpob pinched Arthit's from behind. "I just wanna pinch it forever!!!" arthit silently pulled Kongpob's hand away with his cheek all red because of Kongpob's pulling.

"unlike yours!!" Arthit drew a sharp breath.

The moment was calm and perfect but their heartbeats kept rushing insanely fast, pumping so loud they can both hear their own heartbeats. They got their hands locked and rested and their gaze focus on the movie. How they wish this would never end, no one to interferes, no pressure, no hard feelings, just the two of them forgiving each other because they both know this world is ruthless, their relationship has to be covet among a few people. Even though they know that they love each other but they cant be open because other people might not like it.

Arthit began to tightened his grip onto Kongpob's arm. Suddenly the thought about him not being enough immediately flashed across his mind. Watching the movie, makes him feel so inferior about himself, about not being able to become a woman that kongpob deserved. In the future, how will Kongpob face this reality. Arthit knew that he shouldnt think ahead about the future he couldnt see and just had to cherish what he has next to his arm right how but those pessimistic thoughts always linger. Would he be able to make family for Kongpob. Would he be able to expose their relationship publicly, not to friends like they just did, to the society. Was he enough for Kongpob. This gazes lowered down to his legs. For a moment he thought the perfect and exquisite world that he painted was colliding into small fragments and debris of memories.

"Kongpob..." Arthit murmured. He had to get this out of his chest. "Are..you.sure you're okay with me?.." He continued

"What do you mean p'?" Kongpob furrowed in curiosities.

"I know this is sudden but..just now..while i'm watching this movie with you, i started to feel insanely inferior and self conscious...i just thought that i'm not enough for you..." His eyes got teary.

Konhpob grabbed Arthit's shoulder, averting his eyes to Arthit. "P'...no..please dont have this thought. I promised to make you happy..." kongpob wiped Arthit's teary eyes. "If you have this feeling, let me ask you the same thing, does p' think I'm enough for you? How do you feel about me?" He added

"You know i love you-" arthit replied sharply

"Then i Love you too, p'..probably more than you do...then, if i'm enough for you, you are also enough for me, there's nothing to worry about.." Kongpob cracked a gentle smile.

Those words lifted tons of weights from Arthit's chest but no all of them though.

Kongpob kissed Arthit on the lips and gave him a comfort hug to Soothe Arthit. As painful as it can be, Arthit was really grateful for Kongpob, for entering his life out of the sudden, for enrolling to Engineering Faculty, the place where True love between Them bloomed, he's really grateful for all those moment when Kongpob was teasing him, took care of him, caress him.

Kongpob release Arthit after long pauses of hugs and he asked Arthit if he can change the movie since they both werent really into it and it makes Arthit felt really self conscious.

"P' arthit, promise me you wont have this kind of thoughts again. You startled me for a second there i thought i was dying" kongpob leaned his face toward Arthit until his lips and Arthit's lips were a grain of rice away but kongpob paused before his lips touch arthit. Their eyes were so close to each other. Kongpob held Arthit's neck and gently pushed Arthit's head toward him. Just one Grain of rice away, and now their lips touched. They felt the world circulating. They open their eyes and see one another because that's all they need.
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Sorry this chapter is a bit short ;_;