I am a monster
Hiding shamefully behind a mask of false expressions
But I do not hide in fear of who I truly am
Or the man I might become
I only fear that showing the man I truly am will scare away the ones I love most
And the ones I want to love me
So I use this mask to show off a fake smile
While I fight within myself to hold back the emotions I truly feel
All the anger, hate, sadness, pity, remorse, regret, depression, and despair hovering and poking at my thoughts
All that emotion boiling up
Waiting for me to finally take off my mask
Throw away that stupid fake smile that I hate ever so much
And show the way I truly feel
But I'm terrified for my mask to break
To show out the true monster I am hiding underneath this skin and inside my head
I'm afraid of the very few people I have left running away like everyone else
I am a monster
And I hate having to hide it all the time
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Poetry of Love and Pain
PuisiDifferent poems I've wrote over the years about pain and love
