Kevin and I walked into school holding hands and swinging them with the wind. I got through most of the morning sickness but I still haven't told a soul.
I'm not even acting like I'm pregnant. I need to own up to my own shit this is real life Emma you can't be a fucking pussy all of the time.
I swear you should just kill yourself.
I would never fucking do that stop.
He won't want you after this. He doesn't want a fucking baby. He barely even wants you now as it is.
Shut the fuck up he loves me. He loves me more than anything he's said it himself just shut up shut up shut up.
I shook my head
"What's wrong baby?" he asked
I looked up at him, "Oh.. nothing" I flashed a smile.
"Are you sure. You look like you got a lot on you're mind." He raised an eyebrow
"Nope. Nothing" I shrugged with a smile
His smiled faded as he looked at me and he slightly began pulling me in a different direction.
He then began yanking my arm, pulling me into the girl's bathroom.
"I know when you're lying to me Emma." He said
"Okay that's cool because I'm not lying" I said
"What's going on. Something's wrong." He said
"Nothing is wrong" I insisted
"Another lie!" He yelled
"I'm not lying!" I yelled
"You always shake your fucking head when you're hiding something from me." He said
"No I do not" I said
"Yeah the fuck you do" He got in my face.
"Whatever. You can stand there and think that but I'm le-" I said walking towards the door to have it immediately swing open and the handle smashed against my stomach and I fell to the floor.
"Oh my gosh I'm so sorry oh my god!" The girls shouted
My eyes were wide and I started to shake.
I held my stomach in pain and I curled in a ball.
Kevin ran over to me and held me in his arms.
"You're okay baby" He cooed into my ear.
"Get the fuck out" he yelled at the girls.
"I'm so sorry" They said once more before leaving.
(play song)
"Are you okay" He asked
I sat there without a word as I held my stomach.
I tried to trick my brain into thinking that I wasn't feeling what I was feeling but I couldn't deny this thing.
I couldn't deny what I felt on my thigh.
I couldn't deny why my white underwear was now red.
I couldn't deny that my baby was dripping down my leg.
Kevin looked down and noticed that my jeans were stained red.
"Emma" He muttered
I felt hot tears coming from my eyes as I covered my face so I didn't have to see what I was seeing.
"Emma you weren't" He said
I continued sobbing into my hands as he held me in shock.
I shook in his arms and I cried as quietly as I could.
I couldn't keep in the small noises that emerged from my lips every few seconds.
He just sat there with wide eyes, staring at the puddle of blood forming on the ground.
He finally snapped out of it and looked at me.
"Emma we need to go to the hospital" He said, lifting himself off of the ground.
"No" I cried
"Emma yes we have to go" He said, trying to pick me up off of the floor.
"No my parents can't know" I cried as my words tailed off.
"They don't need to. You're 18" He said
I cried and finally let him pick me up.
He took off his jacket and covered the lower half of my body.
He carried me out of the bathroom. Everyone was in class so he went through hallway to the doors.
They don't usually say anything when people leave so we wouldn't be stopped.
But I wasn't worried about being stopped or ditching school or leaving with Kevin in a month and a half.. I was worried about the baby that I left on the floor of the bathroom in there.
The baby that the janitors would clean with their mops.
Then my baby would be in one of the mops and wrung out into a bucket and poured into a drain.
My baby.
I clung to Kevin's shirt and cried loudly this time.
He set me down in the passenger seat of his car and he got in beside me on the driver's side.
Then we drove.
Everything around me was silent.
I looked out the window with a blank expression and gritted my teeth at the sky.
My baby who never saw the sky.
we pulled up to the hospital.
My baby who never saw the trees.
He carried me through the doors.
My baby who never saw a flower.
I was set on a gurney and rolled somewhere I don't know.
My baby who never pet a dog.
I was examined by a gynecologist I didn't know
My baby who never had a thought
The doctor spoke at Kevin and I
My baby who never blinked their eyes.
"I'm sorry but you lost the baby" a muffled voice
My baby who never fell in love
Kevin took me home in my bloody clothes.
My baby whose father didn't know about them until they were gone.
He walked me up the stairs
My baby who never had fingers.
He ran the water in the bath.
My baby who never developed a brain.
He washed me off.
My baby who surrounded me in the water.
My baby who went down the drain.
My baby who will always end up being in a drain.
My baby who no matter what way you look at it, went down a drain.
I lied in my bed with a blank expression, staring at the wall as Kevin held me in his arms.
My baby who never got to be a baby.
My baby.
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Short little sad chapter :((
Credence Barebone story coming soon though ;))
~papi
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Teen Fiction"You wouldn't hurt me, would you?" "Why would I hurt someone I love?" "Why would you hurt someone at all? Innocent people." He smirked, "Idle hands are the devil's playthings."
