ugh why would you even

uhhmm

*dusts cobwebs from one beloved account and awkwardly shuffles feet while attempting to come up with an excuse to mumble.*

hello, its me. the mythical lesh. im back for now.  I know I've said it before, and im saying it again, but I had planned to stick with it and restore my account to its former glory. but then life steps in like an out of control fire, and if you don't run away fast enough (in my case, walk because I only run when I have to pee.) you're going to get burnt and with it, your carefully planned life will perish until a very pleasing to the eye gentleman (or lady, we aren't here to discriminate.) firefighter steps in and brings the blaze under control and you can breathe again.

[for those of you like me who cant be bothered to read between the lines of that, what I meant was, life doesn't always go how you want it to, but you have to keep fighting for things to get better.]

October 17th 2016 was up there with one of the worst days of my life. I lost someone I had been close with my whole life, and I will probably never get over losing them. Exactly two months later, I was blessed with the arrival of seven puppies. Letting them go has been so hard because ive raised and bonded with them for eight weeks. They're going to good homes though, so I have that piece of mind.

This year, 2017 didn't really start how I would've liked. January was a tough month for dealing with my health, and I'm hoping the rest of February isn't the same. You have just got to find the goodness in the little things, I guess is what keeps me going, even if its slower than I hope. Look forward to the newest episode of your favourite show, (My best friend and I are currently obsessing over Riverdale, and... Cole Sprouse. The hours we've lost talking about all the theories we have and how gorg Cole is are countless.) eat your favourite foods (Crisps are like my kryptonite and I need to learn to share lol) but in moderation, you don't want your hips to start lying, watch that pretty sunset, read your favourite book, cook for your family. Once you open your mind the possibilities are endless.

I kinda have this personal goal to make sure I do at least one nice thing everyday, whether its complimenting someone, or helping them with something, it could even be giving them the last slice of pizza. A simple gesture could make someone's life go from zero to 100 so fast. Just people its miniscule to you, doesn't mean its the same for everyone else. A little kindness goes a long way. 

--a quick update about my account for 2017 (if you're not sick of me yet)

I have plans, drafts, ideas that I've been hard at work on and should be released this year.

Flat Line is my main focus at the moment.

No Shit Sherlock is making its comeback

and I have a new story for all the fangirls in the works.

I'm really excited about these. I really want to restore this back to its original open, interactive, friendly community that it once was. I love input and talking to people and I'e missed it because I've been so distant. this my apology to you guys for my constant absence. you all mean the world to me and I wish I could reward you all with a pet raptor and a lollipop, but lollipop stocks are in decline and my raptors are loose somewhere.

Our tribe is a safe place I hope you love or learn to love coming too.

All the love, always

Lesh xxxxx

p.s, this makes no sense to me either, I just needed to get all of this out there. my stories make more sense I promise.