She's not afraid - A James McVey (TheVamps) Fanfiction

Chapter 7

"Hello hello I know it's been a while now baby" ~ OneDirection

The rest of the day was really nice as well. James and I had a lot of fun and fooled around. I could be myself in James' presence and I had not to put on an act. He understood me how I was and also the other way around.

I liked spending time together with him. I felt so comfortable in his near and he started to become kind of important to me. Of course not only within only two meetings but this was the beginning, you know.

And it went on. Our goodbye-hug was more familiar than the last one. At least it seemed to me like.
The next days I really looked forward to Saturday. I devised to take my inline skates to the park that I wouldn't just stand in a corner like a fool staring at the skater boys.
But don't think that this was the only thing I planned. I even planned my cloths and which deodorant I would wear.

And yes at this point I thought that I was crazy. I mean who plans how he would smell in three days?
But I couldn't help these thoughts. I don't know why.

On Thursday I got a message. It was not from James which disappointed me in the first moment but it was from Marcus. He asked me if I wanted to hangout with him on Saturday.

To understand the lack of me cancelling it immediately right you need to know the background:

It was a pity that Marcus had not so much time for me because of his work. He had late shift every day and besides me a girlfriend. First I was always jealous of her because he spent his less time with her and not with me but I also could understand him. I would do the same.

So I first wrote him:

It depends.

Yes, I was about to tell him about James. But first I wanted him to wonder and to ask to get attention and to make it exciting. This was always our strategy.

On what? ^^ I thought I was the one who is busy.

Yes imagine! I have appointments as well ;)

All right. When do you have time though?

I thought of it. How long would James be in the park? Did he have other plans after the park?
But I also wanted to spend time with Marcus because we hadn't seen each other for like a month.
To make sure that my different meetings wouldn't overlap I wrote:

Afternoon around 4 o'clock?

Fine. Do you want to come to me? I have pizza :p

Sounds good, see you than :)

I expected more questions from him about my "mysterious appointment" but there came none... Maybe he had too many things to think about because his work wasn't that easy for him. I tried to not be disappointed.
It was just ... Since he went to work he was different. He wasn't the same like he used to be. Or rather our relationship wasn't the same. I hoped that it was just a phase which went by.

Suddenly I got an idea. I took my mobile phone again and opened James' chat.

Hi James, I just wondered if you have snapchat?

I found it a good suggestion to have more contact with him besides our meetings.
Immediately an answer arrived.

No I don't. I'm sorry but I don't like this app. I don't think much of making senseless pics or getting some.

Okay that was a statement. I tried to not take it personally. It was just a suggestion and worthwhile asking.

I tried to think about James no longer like the whole day by reading a book. Pointless.

Authors note:

Hey guys,

Firstly I'm sorry that there is so much time between my chapters but I have a lot of stuff to do and I think it will not change the next time. I write whenever I want to and whenever I have enough time. So please be patient.

Then I'm sorry about this chapter. I'm totally dissatisfied with it  because in the end it doesn't really have content.
But it is a necessary gap filler. So please apologize it.

Don't forget to vote and point out my mistakes, I write this story to learn English so don't be shy :)

See you soon