One.
I rang your name on my phone. I was very excited to tell you what was I doing throughout my day today. And about how kind the lady I met earlier at the cafe. And how delicious the burger that I ate this afternoon tastes. And I was wondering how was your day too.
No answer.
Two.
I rang it again. I wanted to ask you to get some pancakes at the diner we usually went together.
No answer. Maybe you left your phone somewhere.
Three.
I went to the road when you first gave me a ride home. Below the traffic light, you said, "You're beautiful," and you smiled, genuinely. I remember how the butterflies crumpled inside me.
Still no answer.
Four.
I remember when we were actually going to a waterfall. But instead, the GPS leads us to a quiet, sleepy never-ending road and we were so lost of where we are. Instead of panicking, you played our playlist on the car radio and sang out loud. Love Will Set You Free, by Kodaline. You looked at me, singing my favorite part. You were looking at me, like I am your entire world. Your eyes told me all.
No answer, again.
Five.
I remember when we went to a carnival. Played some games there. Won a huge teddy bear. You bought me a pink cotton candy. You told me you liked cotton candy because it tastes like.... me. You wanted to ride a ferris wheel, but I was too afraid of the heights. You convinced me, saying "I'll hug you all the time while we are riding it, if it's necessary."
Six.
I remember when you had me in your embrace while I was in my lowest. I know you were always here with me when I need you. I know you were the person whom I could count on. I know you were the person who would always willing to hear my constant ramblings. I know you were the person whose shoulder I could lean on to.
"Shhh baby, it's okay. I'm here. Okay? I'm always right here with you."
You were.
Seven.
I wanted to tell you I missed you. Do you ever, perhaps, did the same thing? Do you remember about the moments we had together, the moments that we cherished the most? Do you know how hard it is to let you go when you left me dumbfounded? Do you know how much pain I have to endure when the memories we had together hits me all of the sudden? Do you know that I'm in pain? Do you ever feel sorry for being like this to me? Do you ever think about how I feel? Would you even turn your head to look at me again with those hazel eyes?
Again, still no answer.
Eight, nine, ten.... Twenty....
Why aren't you answering my call?
Where are you?
Even a million times I rang your name on my phone, even I waited for centuries for you to answer my calls.... You just never did.
I thought we were everlasting, but nothing lasts forevermore. I thought love conquers all. I thought you were different, but nothing is.
