Thoughts

It's Been Years

When i was a child

I wish for nothing but fun

I cried when i don't get what i want

And my parents don't have a choice but to get it for me at once

Crying seems to be my friend

When no one is around

When I'm so mad at the world

When my feelings begin to explode

When i was a child,

i used to cry to seek someone's attention

I used to laugh even though I dunno the situation

I used to mumble when I see things my eyes can't take

And i used to find someone to ease the pain

But as years go by, people change

The way they act, the way they respond

The way they show you the real one

The way you hide your tears through a smile

We used to hide the tears

When no one is around

When the pillows are just with you

And no one can ask you why you're sobbing

I don't need to explain

You concluded everything

Its a no joke that i am hurting

You keep on looking and judging me from a distance

But yet you don't know the real me up close.

Those pains that keep me going

Those tears that keep on flowing

Those sleepless nights i have been

Those things that bothers me always

Part of me somehow gives up

But a certain part of me tells

"IT'S NOT YOU WHEN YOU JUST SIT THERE AND SOB"