The Balance Between Both Worlds (BoyxBoy)

The Great Depression

Lock's POV
A loud and annoying beeping sound filled my room as I let out a groan of annoyance. I sat up and without missing a beat, shut off my alarm clock before rubbing my eyes and yawning slightly. I flipped the comforter from my body, letting the cool air engulf my warm torso. I shivered slightly before placing my feet on the carpet of my bedroom floor and stretching. I stood up and walked into my closet before picking out my outfit which consisted of, a pair of black skinny jeans, a 'Tokyo Ghoul' t-shirt, a grey beanie, and a few wristbands on both of my wrist. I laid out my outfit before grabbing a towel and walking into the bathroom.

I walked out of the bathroom and down the hallway before walking into my room. I threw my now dirty clothes into the hamper at the corner of my room before drying off my body and throwing on my outfit. I left my beanie on the bed as I walked back into the bathroom and quickly blow-dried my hair before styling it the way I want. I walked back into my room and slipped on my beanie before grabbing my key chain and hooking it to the loop holes of my jeans.

I checked myself out in my mirror before grabbing my Bluetooth headphones, my phone, and my book bag.

Right before I left my room I grabbed my laptop and put it safely in my bookbag before shutting my bedroom door behind me and walking downstairs and into the kitchen, only to quickly make myself a bowl of cereal and I began to eat it quickly.

"Okay, eat like a pig and a horse had a baby. That's totally normal!" I heard my older sisters voice behind me as she drew out the word 'totally'. I rolled my eyes before answering.

"Like your any better whenever your watching TV. I'm pretty sure I saw a chip fly across the room you were eating so fast." I joked back with her before wincing when she punched my shoulder roughly.

"Rude!" I heard her say before she came into my view and I quickly scanned over what she was wearing.

Her purple eyes were as bright as ever as her long black hair rested just above her waist. She was wearing black short shorts and a 'Black Butler- Book Of Circus' tee shirt. I heard the scraping of the chair against the kitchen tiles as she took a seat next to me and made her own bowl of cereal.

Me and Alex ate in comfortable silence as we continued to stuff our faces. After a few minutes I heard the dreadful sound of my mom's bedroom door squeaking open. I heard her booming footsteps as she entered the kitchen.

"Good morning sweetheart! Lock." I heard the devil say as she quickly appeared in front of us to grab her work bag and a few folders. I took a second to take in what she looked like. Alex was the mirror image of her. My mom had long black hair that went just below her shoulders and dull purple eyes, that I found out were contacts, she then had on a usual work outfit, she had a black skirt and a white button up shirt, along with a dark grey jacket and her usual back heels that clicked against the tiles of the kitchen floor, moving on to the soft carpet. I heard give a half hearted goodbye as I flinched slightly when she slammed the door shut.

"I'm sorry about her, it's not your fault." I heard my sister's sweet voice say from the left of me. I looked down at the ground in shame.

"But it was.." I heard my voice come out as just barely above a whisper.

I heard a deep sigh from next to me as I felt thin arms wrap around me in a tight embrace as I quickly pulled away and stood up to throw my dishes in the sink and rushing upstairs to brush my teeth.

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I walked into school with my headphones in and head down as I began walking. I caught a glimpse of blue hair quickly walk next to me as I put on a fake smile and took off my blue headphones, letting them rest around my neck.

"Hey Ian!" I spoke in my most excited voice that I could muster up that second as I kept on the brightest, happiest, and the most fake smile.

"Hey Lock, you seem awfully excited this morning. Did something happen?" I heard the last sentence roll off his tongue as I grimaced. My sister asked me the same day I started cutting. I learned to smile and play it off. Don't lose your cool now Lock.

"Nah, I just have a feeling that something good is going to happen today!" I wanted to gag at how fake my voice and entire mood sounded.

"Wel-" Ian started, but I quickly cut him off.

"I'm sorry, but I have to go grab my stuff for my first class. We'll talk at lunch, okay?" I asked him as I gave him not time to reply before I dashed in the direction of my locker. Leaving a very confused Ian behind me.

I let go of the breath I didn't even know I was holding as I started to approach my locker. I just had to get out of there, my happy facade almost broke. Right before I reached my locker I saw a mob of white hair and deep red eyes. Chase. I really didn't have the energy to deal with him. To deal with any of them right now. So, I did the only thing I could.

I ran.

I could feel the hot tears running down my face as I sprinted down the now empty hall ways. I rested against a near by wall and I put my hand on my heart as I slid down, defeated. I felt deflated. Broken. More so then I already am.

I tried to calm my beating heart that felt as though it would burst out of my chest at any given second.

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I give up...

                    I can't do this anymore..

I should just end it all..

                       My mom wouldn't miss me..
     
          They can find another soul mate..

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More thoughts like this continued to race through my head as I could feel the tears stream down my face as I let out sobs. I bit my hand to keep the screams from escaping. I stood up as I stumbled and steadied myself on a near by wall before I did what I always did when I couldn't handle something. I ran.

On the day my own mother told me that I, her son broke our family. That day I ran almost completely out of town. That was the day that my great depression began. It's all my goddamn fault.

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Maybe I should end it...?
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Hey guys! I wanted to apologize for not updating. I have been trying my best and still trying to keep up with school work and everything. And I know this chapter may not really make sense. But it might in the next chapter! Well, that's all! RINKAMI OUT! For now.... O^O