I thought I was someone
Whom you were trying to
Spend these past couple of months
Genuinely wanting to be with.
I thought you actually wanted
To be have me around
Because you just missed me.
Apparently you just wanted
To keep tabs on me
Due to the fact that you
Find it impossible to trust me
Even the slightest.
I guess all I can do
Is just assume your moments
Of being the most honest to me
Is when you are pissed off at me.
I can't help but wonder
If the only time I should trust
Your true feelings are when
You're pissed off at me
When you know there's no longer a risk
Of you not being able to come back home.
I wish I can trust that the words
Coming from your lips
are true when you are not pissed off at me.
though I guess this means one thing
Either make sure he is pissed off
Even for the slightest situation
Or try to keep everything
I want to say or do
Hidden from you.
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Poetry Written Cuddled With My Pillow by Laina Aurelius
PoetryA series of poetry written based on my traumatic experiences involving most of a childhood and teen years of sexual abuse by multiple people and a marriage with being forced into temporary polygamy until he realized that he was going to lose me if i...
