I keep daydreaming of my death
I only partially want to die
But the thoughts keep coming.
I want to tell a therapist
Of these thoughts
But I get scared of losing
those who I love the most
Which is pretty much the only ones
Who keeps me from just ending myself.
I don't want to hurt them
But ending my life
Sometimes feels like the escape that I need.
Sometimes I wonder though
Whether anyone both
friends and both family
Who shows that they love and care
Or especially the ones that don't
Would even really remember me
Within a couple of days
After I'm gone.
Maybe I should let my therapist know
About these thoughts
But I'm scared that
I would lose my family
If I reveal these thoughts.
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Poetry Written Cuddled With My Pillow by Laina Aurelius
PoesiaA series of poetry written based on my traumatic experiences involving most of a childhood and teen years of sexual abuse by multiple people and a marriage with being forced into temporary polygamy until he realized that he was going to lose me if i...
