Life after the fall of panem

Chapter 19

Chapter 19

"Hi.." I repeat. "How have you been Katniss?" "Ummm.. I'm good.. " I hesitate," How about you?" "I'm okay, I was planning a visit to 12 and wondered if you had an extra room?" I didn't, the guest room was being remodeled and he has no idea Peeta and I married after the war. "I'm sorry , I dont .." "Come on Katnip, with you alone in that big house you can't tell me you don't have a spare room ." "I'm not all alone Gale.." Peeta looked up at me, he was warming up left overs and making cheesy buns. "What do you mean?" Gale asked "I mean I'm married." There was a long pause . "To who? Not Peeta?" I didn't respond. "Come on Katniss you're not serious are you ? The baker ? Seriously ? I thought it was all an act ?" "Gale you know nothing , in the first games it was an act, but it grew into more . Gale I did love you, but the love I have for Peeta is completely different than the love I had for you!" I'm screaming at him now , "Peeta understands this part of me that you never will. You used to be the only person who knew the real me, I tried to run away with you. I gave 'us' chances.. Peeta loves me. I love him. Peeta is the man I deserve. I have enough fire in me, I don't need anymore from someone like you. Gale you took off, left , went to District 7. How was being a lumberjack your big dream?! You could of gone anywhere ?! But did you leave a note ? A goodbye letter? No you just left !" Peeta's at my side now rubbing my back. "How long have you been married?" was his only question. "A little more than 2 years. Why?" "The war only ended 3 and a half years ago Katniss." "And your point is ..?" "You were with him for a year before getting married?" "Damn you Gale! It's none of your business!" "Katniss answer one more question please." "What ?!" I yell. "What's your opinion on kids?" "What ?" "God Katniss, do you still not want kids!?" He shouted back. I hesitated ,"Oh God, oh ... " he paused, "How old are they? How many are there? Oh God." Gale talks as if the wind was knocked out of him. "You're pregnant now aren't you!" Now screaming at me. "ITS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS GALE !" "You got knocked up by the baker boy! That's doomed to fail . You're not even fit to be a mother. You can't even take care of yourself. Knocked up by the ba..." Was the last thing I heard before Peeta took the phone from me and hung it up. I turned and walked straight to our room. "Katniss ..." Peeta sighed . I walked up the stairs and headed toward the bathroom. I turned the water on warmer than I usually would, stripped down to nothing , got my hair wet and sat down. I sat with my back to the water and my knees at my chest, staring at the rim of the bathtub. 'Why do I always let him get the best of me?' I start to question myself 'Was I wrong by choosing Peeta?' I start to cry. I sit in the shower for almost an hour. I hear Peeta climbing the stairs, set something in our room and knock on the door. I didn't answer but he walked in anyway. "Katniss ?" He saw my shadow on the curtain and felt the water which was ice cold now. "Oh .. Katniss !" He gasped when he saw my blue toes and fingers, shaking body still sitting knees to chest, staring at the rim of the tub. He turned the water off and grabbed towels. He wrapped me in the towels, picked me up, and carried me to our bed. He covered me with the comforter and ran to get a space heater. When he got back he plugged it in and got me dressed in sweat pants and one of his sweatshirts. He brushed my hair and tried to braid it. 'I love Peeta, I didn't make any mistake , Peeta is my muse.' I thought to myself as Peeta pushed me to eat lunch. 'But am I fit to be a mother?'