MarkiplierXreader smut (DISCONTINUED!!)

Chapter 10: Really?

(Will contain stuff about self harm and shit so trigger warning, also (f/c) is favorite color, (f/a) is favorite animal, (f/g) is favorite game and (h/t) is home town or city)

I washed my hands and left the bathroom. I walked downstairs and Sean and Mark were laughing really really hard. "What's so funny?" I asked while giggling a bit. "SEAAANNN JUST HAD TO SCREAM IN MY EAR AGAIN" I burst out into laughter and sat on the couch snuggling up to Mark. "So (y/n), tell me about yourself." "Well my favorite color is (F/c), i love video games and YouTube, i read a ton of fanfic, I love (f/a)'s and my favorite game is (f/g)." "Nice, but more about you!" "Um well i grew up in (h/t) and moved here when i was like maybe 12, or 13, i have two (f/a)'s and that's all i got." "What about family?" when i heard that my heart sank into my stomach and my eyes started to tear up.

~FLASHBACK~(4 years ago)

I walked downstairs and saw my mom on the couch crying. I immediately ran to the couch and sat next to her, comforting her. "Mom what's wrong?" "Your father, he h-he cheated on me and left us while you were in school, and i didn't find out until now" "WHAT?" i screamed in shock and pain. i ran upstairs and put on the locket he had given me for my 12th birthday. I looked at the picture inside of it and started to cry. He left us. 'he left us' is all i could think. My only sibling had walked out on us 2 years ago, my father just walked out on us, and my mother is an alcoholic. 'i hope she finds someone new' is what i thought, trying not to think about myself.

~FLASHBACK~ (2 years ago) 

I walked downstairs and my mom was sitting on the couch. At this point she was sober and seemed happier than ever, and i didn't know why. "Babe i gotta tell you something" she said to me in a sweet tone. "You're getting a new dad!" "WHAT" is all i could get out before i started crying. "Hey hey hey its okay sweets you will love him, i promise, his name is Joey." 

~time skip~ (month later)

Turns out i loved this guy. I didn't call him Joey, i called him dad. He promised to never walk out on us and never hurt my mom or me. He was great. But i missed my sister so much it had been about 6 years since she left. My 'real' dad abused her, and that's why she left. She never called or visited within the past 6 years. I was also being bullied at school big time. After dinner i went upstairs and grabbed the razor blade and slid it across my arm, and i started bleeding heavily and passed out. I woke up in a hospital the next morning. This happened pretty much every week for a year. 

~PRESENT TIME~

I noticed i was crying while Mark was trying to snap me out of it. I snapped out of my daze and saw Sean tearing up as well as Mark. "I'm so sorry i didn't want to upset you i just want to get to know you better. "I used to cut" I blurted out not realizing it. "WHAT?!??! WHY" Mark shouted. He rolled up my sleeves and looked at my wrists. "WHEN DID YOU STOP? ANSWER ME NOW" Mark yelled. I was at a loss of words when i heard Sean speak. "Give her some time to think, Mark, I think she needs a second" Mark nodded his head and sat in silence. "My 'real' dad cheated and walked out. Before that my sister left because he abused her. I really missed her one day and started to cut, I just stopped this year" "Really?" Mark and Sean said in a worried tone. "Yes, now can we please move on." "Wait" Mark said. "Don't ever hurt yourself again, you are beautiful inside and out and you should not hurt yourself at all baby girl" "I know Mark, i know" Yes, seriously please don't do it." Sean said butting into the conversation. "I know. I wont." "Promise us" Sean said while putting up his pinky finger. Mark also put his pinky up. I latched both of my pinkies on theirs and gave Mark a small kiss on the cheek.