Accident A JB Baby Story

Chapter 6

  Kya's POV

When Justin, reached my house, I could feel his eyes watching me but I didn't return his gaze, I just carried on looking at my lap "are you okay?" his gentle voice came, I nodded my head slightly "yeah, I'm fine, I think I just drank a little too much last night" I heard Justin's intake of breath, before he quietly said "me too, Ky, can I tell you something?" I finally looked at him, but he was looking away from me, out of his window "sure you can tell me anything you know that" he took another deep breath and spoke "last night I made a mistake.." he turned his head from the window to look down at his hands that were in his lap, he looked disgusted, at himself? Or the girl who had left him alone in a bed, after a drunken mistake.. with me? He went on to say "I had sex with someone, and I don't know who" a pang of guilt hit me straight in the stomach, I felt like I wanted to throw up "well, Justin, these things happen all the time, it's not like it's a big deal" I lied, to him and to myself, losing my virginity was a huge deal for me, but surely he shouldn't be too upset, I assume that he's had sex before, so it shouldn't matter that he had a one night stand. I sighed and I saw, water quickly fill his eyes "but it was a big deal.." he looked at me, he looked so upset, hurt. The guilt inside of me, started hitting me repeatedly "..Ky, it wasn't just some one night stand, it was.." he paused and took another deep breath and looked down again "I lost my virginity last night" he said it extremely quiet, I had to lean towards him to hear. My eyes widened slightly and my jaw dropped open a little, I had taken Justin's virginity, and he took mine, the only difference is.. I knew that he had mine, but he didn't know that I forever had his "I'm sorry Justin" his head turned immediately to me "why are you sorry? It's not your fault!" I felt like crying, the stinging in my eyes returned, I had to blink regularly to stop the tears from spilling over. He didn't know the truth but I did, It was my fault, he didn't know that I had his virginity, he awoke this morning next to an empty bed, but he didn't know that I was the last occupant of that bed. It was all my fault. "Still.. I'm sorry all the same" I said barely audible. We sat in silence for a while, then I sighed and undone the seatbelt and opened my the car door, after I got out I leaned into the car and said "I'll see you soon Justin" then I closed the door, walked to my front door and watched Justin drive off. I sighed to myself and walked into the house "MOM? DAD?" I called out, I got no response, meaning that neither of my parents were home. Good. I leant against the front door, and cried while sliding down it, pulling my knees to my chest and letting all the tears I held back, spill onto my legs and Christmas dress.

Justin's POV

I drove home, thinking of Kya, I hated telling her that I was a virgin, and that I had lost it to someone who wasn't her (A/N haha.. that's what he thinks) it's just sex right? It wasn't that big of a deal, was it? It's just something everyone does, for fun. I tried telling myself this, but I knew that none of it was true, it was a big deal to me, I at least wish I knew who it was I slept with.
I got home and walked in the door, as soon as I did, my mom rushed up to me "hey sweetie" I made an attempt to smile, I didn't really want her asking questions "hi mom"
"how was last night?" the truth was, I don't remember any of it, but I couldn't tell her that "it's was good, I had fun" it wasn't totally a lie, right, I must have enjoyed myself. After she asked me all of her questions I walked upstairs to my room, and stayed in there for the rest of the day. I would stay in here for the rest of my life if I could.