Harry's POV
♪And I've just let these little things, slip, out, of my mouth. Cause it's you. It's you. It's you, they add up to. And I'm in love with Lou. And all his little things.♪ Uh oh. Shit shit shit shit! Not again!! Its like my brain is on autopilot! It must be because I've been thinking about him so much lately. Great, now he's going to know I've been thinking about him!
Immediately Louis' eyes are on mine. At first his eyes are full of longing, then suddenly he just looks upset. Like he might cry. Luckily the audience doesn't seem to notice the word change. They never used to. With a British accent "Lou" sounds exactly like "you" and "these" sounds just like "his". We finish the song and I stare out into the audience, not looking at my band mates. All of a sudden, I could do it. I could do it right now! Go up to Louis and kiss him and tell him I love him more than anything else in the world. Announce that I'm gay. What would management be able to do? They wouldn't be able to do anything! For a split second, I thought I would do it, I really thought so. I started to walk across the stage towards Louis. He isn't looking at me, he's talking to Zayn. Niall is looking right at me though. He shakes his head once, as though he can read my mind. I know he's right. I just can't. Making that decision would change everything. Everything. And besides, Louis and I weren't even dating anymore. My expression goes stony and I turn back around to face the audience. For the rest of the concert I am dull, singing with the smallest amount of enthusiasm possible without anything seeming a miss. Louis doesn't look at me once.
Finally its over. After we have waved to the crowd, I walk off stage immediately. I can hear Louis walking behind me. I walk behind a pair of curtains off stage and he follows me. I can already tell that he is going to yell at me, and tell me we're done!
"What the hell was that!?" He says to me. "I d'd'don't know. I'm sorry if I embarrassed you o'o'ut there." I stutter. "I guess I..." I take a deep breath. "I guess I still love you." “Harr..." Louis starts to speak but I silence his lips with a kiss that knocks him into the wall. For a second it's just me kissing him. Then his lips crash back into mine and he pushes me into the wall. The curtain wraps around us and he runs his fingers through my curls. I know that he wants this. He doesn't want to forget about us. He wants to push through and have a relationship no matter what the hell management wants.
But then he pulls away from me. "I'm sorry Harry. I just...I can't!" He speaks angrily like its my fault he's falling in love with me again. Well I guess it is... "Harry no, wait! Please." Louis turns around and I can see tears running down his face. "No Harry! No! I can't do that anymore! I'm done going behind management's back! I'm done pretending for the media I don't love you! I'm done with this." And he storms off before I can say another word.
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When in Pittsburgh
Ficção AdolescenteLouis Tomlinson is gay... and in love with Harry Styles. But they can't come out, it would change the way people would look at the band. It gets too difficult to hide the truth so they decide to break up. It's all for the best. Then Louis meets Jenn...
