"Phil?"

six

Dan

My eyes warily open. I realize I've been asleep for almost a whole day, for its almost 4pm. Phil's not there again. I keep wondering where he goes. I just want to stay with him all the time.

I haven't been to school in months, almost. My depression makes it almost impossible for me to get out of bed most mornings. But both of my parents are at work at the moment, so I decide to go back out into the woods. Phil and I made a little "hang-out spot" in an old, abandoned shed we'd found. I walked in and lied down on the ground, pulling my phone on to set some music. When I'm out here, I play either Trees or Forest by Twenty One Pilots out of irony.

I almost fall asleep again, until Phil plops himself right at my face. I didn't even notice home walk in.

"Hey, I went to your house but you weren't there," he says to me.

"I just didn't feel like being there alone. I'd rather be out here, no one can hear me really." I shift, placing my head in his lap so I can better talk to him. He starts messing with my hair, making me want to fall asleep even more.

My eyes start drifting shut, and he adjusts my fringe out of my eyes. Just as I'm about to fall asleep, Phil speaks up again.

"Did... Did you really mean what you said last night?" He asks softly.

Last night? What did I say last night?

"What?" What did I say?" I ask, completely confused. He stops playing with my hair, staring straight in front of him.

"You... You said you... You said that you loved me. I think, I couldn't hear exactly..." his voice croaked out.

Oh. Oh shit. He heard me. I didn't think he'd hear me. I guess I can't lie to him now. I sit up, turn around, and face him.

"Y-yes, Phil, I did mean it. I was just, scared to admit it out loud or anything. I thought you were asleep, so I just said it really quietly. But then you said something back and I didn't know if it was just in your sleep or if it was a conscious thought or -"

I was cut off. Phil had pressed his face against mine. His lips were soft, they tasted like vanilla. I was shocked at first, but eventually melted into the kiss. It was a couple of seconds, then I felt him pull away. I opened my eyes again. He was gone. I didn't know what to think.

"Phil?"

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UGH HONESTLY I'M REALLY NOT LIKING THE WAY THIS IS GOING BUT I'M JUST TRYING TO FURTHER MY WRITING SKILLS AT THE MOMENT, SO I'M HOPING THIS WILL MAKE ME A BETTER WRITER.

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