Katy's POV Today we are rehearsing for the live shows. Everyone is coming which I am kind of nervous about.. I have been trying my best to avoid the boys because I still feel guilty. Why? I'm still cutting. Louis doesn't know. Neither does anybody else. I still feel insecure. I'm such a coward. I don't know how the boys will react to seeing me after a whole week. They are honestly my best friends and I feel so awful for ignoring them. I miss them. I miss Louis..
I quickly checked over my outfit to see if I looked okay as all the judges and contestants would be there.
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I had fresh cuts on my arm from this morning so I decided to cover them up by wearing a jumper. Just as I had done daydreaming, I heard someone say my name.. "Katy?" A familiar voice asked... Louis. "Hey Lou" I said nervously. He took ahold of my arms. I winced in pain, trying to hide the fact I had being cutting. Louis looked at me because he had saw my actions. He looked concerned. "Again?" Was all he managed to say. I nodded and looked at the ground. He looked at me blankly and I started to get worried.. that was until embraced me a hug. "Don't ever do it again? Understand me? If you ever feel like you want to or need to, call me." He whispered into my hair. "Can I see?" He asked.
Louis POV I can't believe she has been cutting again. She thinks she deserves the pain! She needs to know how beautiful she is!! "Can I see?" I asked, scared to see what damage has been caused. She hesitantly rolled up her sleeves to reveal fresh wounds. They have seemed to become deeper and darker. "And one more question.." I said.. "Yes?" She asked nervously. I took ahold of her hands. "Why have you been ignoring me?" "I'm sorry Louis.. I feel guilty. I disobeyed what you said and carried on cutting. You would try and stop me. You would think I'm a coward and it's true! I am.." she said. "Listen to me." I said with certainty. "I'm here to help you.. not to judge you. I care about you so much and you need to stay strong. You need to win this competition.. not just for your sister, because you love it." I smiled and pulled her into another embrace.
AUTHORS NOTE OKAY IM SORRY THIS WAS AN AWFUL AND SHORT CHAPTER BUT THEY WILL GET BETTER! I've been moved onto a higher table in maths and the work is really hard. GUYS HELP ME. There is this girl I sit next to and it's really awkward between us because she is really shy and quiet and I'm just THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE. Help. Me. BTW WE HAD OVER 30 READS! That may not sound a lot but to me it is! Thankyouuu AND.. AND.. AND.. OOOHH EMMM GEE! Did you see Louis and Steve on the late late show? AGHH! I love them so much! Especially Louis!!
