After Light [larry]

After Light

HARRY'S POV

As I brush my fingers against my desk, fumbling for the mouse, I kept wondering about Louis. Why was I such a bastard to him? I ignored him, because he was running late. Okay, he broke a promise but who cares? I pushed him away, my best friend. I shoved him away, and now he's probably running after Collin, hoping she'd like him.

I click on the first song I see, the lyrics echoing around my room, draining my thoughts as Ke$ha's song, The Harold Song plays. I kept thinking, hoping, Louis was okay. That he would come home soon so I can say sorry and hug him and wish he would take me back.

They say that true love hurts, well this could almost kill me

Young love murder, that is what this must be

I would give it all to not be sleeping alone

Alone

I sang along to the song, tapping against knees, my head racing as I wonder what was happening to me. Maybe I should give my mum a call, tell her I wanted a hug or talk to her or something. I'm 20 now, I should be able to control my problems without my own mother.

The life is fading from me while you watch my heart bleed

Young love murder, that is what this must be

I would give it all to not be sleeping alone

Alone

Focus, Harry. I tell myself. Maybe Louis is happy with Collin.

Wait, what am I saying? Louis and I have never been...like that. I've never been in love, so what is this? What am I even feeling? Everything is confusing.

Remember the time we jumped the fence when

The Stones were playing and we were too broke to get in

You held my hand and they made me cry while

I swore to God it was the best night of my life

Please, Louis don't friend-zone me...

Wait, friend-zone me? What am I thinking...what am I saying? He loves Collin, for 5 years he's told me how much he likes her and I can't take that away from him and tell him...tell him what?

Or when you took me across the world

We promised that this would last forever but now I see

It was my past life, a beautiful time

Drunk off of nothing but each other 'til the sunrise

I remember the first time Louis and I met. The school yard, sitting alone wishing and hoping someone would become my friend, but nobody would. Except Louis. The kid in all my classes, the one with no friends either, and then it clicked.

Drunk off of nothing but each other 'til the sunrise

They say that true love hurts, well this could almost kill me

Young love murder, that is what this must be

I would give it all to not be sleeping alone

Alone

They say that true love hurts. I'm hurting. Every day, every hour...minute....second.

Do I love Louis?