Falling for you

Four weeks later

Four long happy weeks had passed. Connie was enjoying  life. Taking five year old William to school being his mum doing normal things she still hadn't gone back to work yet. She was just enjoying life at home and Jacob had taken as much leave as possible to be with Connie and William. Through he only had another week of leave ugh Connie felt a little bit scared about Jacob leaving her on her own she was getting used to the idea. She had to get used to her normal life again and adjust to it. Connie was still missing something though there was still a hole in her heart she was missing the twins Erika and Emilia and Grace! She missed her beautiful daughter so much. She would be nine now. Connie despartly wanted to see her. Little did she know Jacob was already working on getting Grace to come home.

Connie was sitting with William while he was eating his lunch he was having tuna pasta Connie wasn't hungry. She just watched William eat she had missed so much of his life . She had been so exited to be his mother to have an opportunity to get it right she had promised herself that she would be a good mother this time. She felt like she had failed William like she had failed Grace.

"You okay beautiful?" Jacob asked he saw Connie starring off into space and he assumed that she was upset which she was.
"Yes" Connie whispered tears building up in her eyes.
"William you finished yeah?" Jacob said 'Go into your playroom and have some quiet time okay?" .
"Okay daddy" he ran off into his playroom.

"Connie baby?" Jacob said rubbing her back 'What's the matter baby girl talk to me'.
"I hate myself Jacob" She said 'I have failed my daughter and our son'.
"No you haven't Connie you have been absent you haven't failed them'.
"Your right" Connie said leaning back into Jacobs arms

"Listen Connie" Jacob said 'About 8 weeks ago I got asked to go to this conference in America I have tried to see if someone else can go but I have to go Connie since I'm in charge of the nurses now I really do have to go'.
"Jacob its fine" Connie said smiling slightly 'It will be good for me and William to have zoom bonding time together just the two of us anyway'.
"Yeah it will be good for the both of you some mummy and son time" Jacob smiled.

Connie smiled truth be told she was a little bit worried about Jacob going away even if it was only for a few days. She felt nervous and quite ugh she didn't want to let Jacob know that she felt like this she wanted to keep him in the dark about her current feelings. She felt like a burden, It was the worse feeling for Connie. She hated feeling like she was either hurting others burdening them or putting pressure onto others. She hoped she would be okay.

Hope you enjoyed this part will try and update more regularly sorry about the slow updates x