(p.s: the bits in italics are where the story is not in a diary format! 🐤)
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mark's diary
wednesday, feb 15 2017
dear diary, do you ever feel like you want the ground to swallow you whole? well, i experienced that for the first time today.
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mark strolled through the crowded hallways, a set of blue headphones perched on his head. today was the day. after complaining to jeno for weeks, scratch that, months, about his crush on donghyuck, last night, jeno had quite frankly, had enough.
kakaotalk:
feb 14th
{leejeno00 is online}
swaggymark: hey bro i need your help
jenolee00: i will never get over how ugly your kakao id is
swaggymark: shut up, i chose it when i was 12, i was stupid back then 😠
jenolee00: you still are stupid
swaggymark: NOT THE POINT
swaggymark: anyway, i have a dilemma
leejeno00: hit me
swaggymark: you want me to hit you?
leejeno00: its a figure of speech dumbass
swaggymark: i knew that.
leejeno00: sure.
swaggymark: look, as cheesy as this sounds, ur the only one i can talk to
swaggymark: i just really like him and the fact that we're still best friends when i want to be something more is practically killing me inside
swaggymark: i can't even look him in the eyes because i just know that i'll get lost in them
swaggymark: did u know his eyes are this really pretty shade of brown
swaggymark: idk what to do man???
leejeno00: mark. i'm going to be blunt here
leejeno00: MAN THE FUCK UP AND TELL HIM HOW YOU FEEL
leejeno00: YES I KNOW YOU LIKE HIM, IVE HEARD YOU COMPLAIN ABOUT HIM FOR A YEAR NOW
leejeno00: "oh jeno he looked cute today" "jeno did you hear his giggle, its so cute" "jeno did you see his outfit, he looked so hot" HEADASS I KNOW WHAT HE LOOKS LIKE, HE'S MY BEST FRIEND TOO
leejeno00: look u need to tell him how you feel because of you leave it till the last minute, you'll regret it. trust me. i know from experience.
swaggymark: woah
swaggymark: i feel like that actually helped, thanks man
leejeno00: anytime bro, i'll do anything to stop hearing you go on about how soft donghyuck looks in oversized sweaters
swaggymark: 😳
swaggymark: wait who did u like
leejeno00: when i was 8, i had a crush on the pizza delivery girl and i wanted to tell her but i never did and i regretted it because one day she stopped delivering my pizza
swaggymark: omg what happened to her
leejeno00: oh, she got fired for eating the pizza
swaggymark: wow
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after his weird pep talk from jeno, mark felt invincible. like he could do anything. but with every rise, there comes a fall.
he walked into his form room and headed towards the back, where his friends usually sat. mark sat down in his seat and reached into his bag for a sheet of paper. he planned to serenade donghyuck with a song he wrote, but not in public.
"i'd probably die if he rejected me in front of the school." mark thought.
he planned on asking donghyuck if they could have lunch together on the school roof where he would attempt to woo him there.
"well, at least if he says no, i can throw myself off the roof, along with the rest of my hopes and dreams." mark thought (ok joke).
he silently went over the lyrics in his head until he heard loud, boisterous laughter coming from the door. donghyuck's laughter to be specific. donghyuck walked, well, laughed his way in with jaemin, jeno and renjun following them. donghyuck caught mark's eye and mark abruptly stood up from his desk, knocking his chair back in the process.
"well done idiot" donghyuck said while scoffing at a rather flustered mark, who was attempting to look normal, without looking like a nervous wreck.
"good morning to you too." mark said, trying to regain his last bit of dignity.
"hey hyuck, can we talk later, at lunch?" mark stuttered, while fiddling with his jumper sleeves, which had suddenly become so interesting.
"uh yeah sure, wh-"
"HYUCKIE" a loud high pitched, feminine voice screeched, before a small body practically slammed into donghyuck, wrapping their feminine arms around his waist.
"oh yeah, mark this is my girlfriend-"
mark zoned out as soon as he heard the word girlfriend. of course donghyuck would have a girlfriend. or even a boyfriend since he was that attractive. mark's entire world came crashing down until the giggles of donghyuck's girlfriend, whose name he didn't even know, brought him back to reality.
"so is that ok mark?"
"huh what?"
"i said can i take a rain check on lunch today? i'm eating with jieun today."
"uh yeah sure, that's cool man."
donghyuck didn't see it but the smile on mark's face fell as he stepped back towards his desk and sat down, not realising that he hadn't picked his chair up from when it previously fell, so instead of landing on a chair, he landed on the floor. as if life couldn't get any worse.
mark had only been in school for 30 minutes but he was already fed up and well, pretty much done with life.
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and that is how i managed to embarrass myself in front of my crush and my new girlfriend in the space of a minute. i love my life.
anyway, i'm going to eat my body weight in ice cream and cry myself to sleep, so goodbye.
— slightly emotionally unstable mark
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friendzoned ➳ markhyuck
Fanfictionin which a boy constantly pines after his seemingly oblivious best friend or donghyuck just can't take a hint, mark complains about it in his diary everyday and jeno is fed up
