(the lyric from above is from a song called same same by waax)
so today was eventful
basically i did the beep test today which was hell, i got to like 3-something before i dropped out which was cool or whatever, and then in the night i got my booster shots done (if you don't know what they are, you basically just get these done so they boost up previous shots you've gotten)
and it was hell
getting ready to go to the doctors i was already crying, then i felt better when i put on indi's flannel she gave me, then we went and i was sad for a while then got better, then was bad when we were walking to get my shit done and it was rlly bad and i couldn't listen to music to distract myself cause it could interfere with the doctor stuff
and then the nurse didn't even warn me when she put the needle in, which is when i lost it and i tensed up and my arm still hurts from doing that and i kept saying "i'm not ready" over and over again and i get why she didn't warn me but i really wish she did stuff would've worked out better then i guess so
then we got chinese and my legs felt so weird like i felt heavy and everything hurt and it still feels like that kinda but ya
anywya i'm kinda okay now, i'm glad i didn't have as bad as a panic attack as i thought i would (last time i got my shots done, i had such a bad panic attack i was in literal shock after the needle had finished, wasn't pretty at all)
anyway other than that for a while i've wanted jb&s to have like a Full On argument and i'm not sure why really, i guess i just love suffering :))))))))) no wonder why i'm writing brite lies;);););) but you didn't hear that from me
