i just went through my emails n found sinners suicide note why am i suddenly crying
'Well, hey. This is already more awkward than I expected, which is why I don't usually write anything. I'm sorry. I guess it was expected, I hope you're not too upset. Over the many times I've tried, I never actually wrote a note. This isn't just a boring 'reasons i don't want to live' thing, those are annoying. I probably shouldn't have written this so early, I don't currently know when it's going to happen. Actually, we're on the way back from Columbus. You're asleep on my lap and I didn't think I'd have any other time to write. Did you know that you curl up when you're asleep? Not completely though. And sometimes you'll just move closer to whatever warmth is around you. This doesn't make sense, but just know this. It isn't your fault, it would've happened sooner or later. It's better now when we both know then another time. I'm not good at this writing thing, I don't know what to say. Please, if you could, stay for my funeral. But don't make it anything like that plan of yours, it'd be pretty weird. That was an adorable plan though. Over time, I've fallen more and more in love with you. Even when we parted, I didn't stop, even if I wanted to. Know that even though from the second of my last breath, I still love you. I always will. This made no sense and was a sorry excuse for a suicide note, maybe even just a love letter at that.
I love you, forever and always, Joshua William Dun.
p.s, it'd be really great if you looked at the Stars for me, it's a childhood dream honestly'
