valentine's day. / nct na jaemin

two.

february 14, 2017

"na jaemin! where are you going?"

"yoori! i'm on my way to do something... well, trying to. my nerves aren't letting me. by the way, your hair is so cute with those heart clips. but why do you ask? "

"i have to ask you something."

"just give me one second, okay? i'm really sorry, but if i don't do it now, i might end up hiding from it for the rest of my life!"

"of course. i'll be here."

i was nervous. i wasn't ready to confess, but i knew that i had to one day...

so i followed him to where he was running and he lead me into the crowded cafeteria, searching for someone.

but then, he stopped.

he stopped in front of a girl.

pulled out a card.

bent down on one knee as though it was a proposal.

and said,

"i like you a lot... do you like me back?"

the girl's face was in shock.

she hesitantly bowed down and picked him up from the floor after making eye contact with me.

"i'm sorry... i don't like you like that... i can't... you deserve someone els-- "

but then... he kissed her.

i fell to the ground, hurt but calmed.

the part that hurt the most was that... the girl was...

cheonsa.

sometimes we create our own heartbreaks through expectation.