"Here's To Us" {Sequel to Fall For You}

Chapter 13: I'm Scared to Get Close

Lydia's POV

I stood there in Jacklyne's porch staring at Austin. Neither one of us talked. Neither one of us knew what to say.

"Dammit Austin," Mrs. Martin said hitting him on the back of the neck. She did that to people she loved. "Get some balls and talk to her." .I grew kind of red. He cleared his throat and I looked at the ground.

"I'm so sorry Lyd," he finally managed to whisper. Honestly he looked like absolute shit. Here I was thinking he hated me. Thinking that he never loved me. My heart pounded with joy. My head and anxious side said to stop. The voices came back after he left honestly. I hadn't eaten in days.

"I'm sorry too."

He walked out and shut the door behind him. He looked down at me and pulled me into a hug. I cried into his chest. It seamed like that was the only thing I could do anymore.

I felt a weight lift over my shoulders yet I didn't think I could take him back.

I slowly pulled away and I looked up at him wiping away my tears. Pain over took his eyes. " I forgive you," I whispered.

A smile crept against his face I bit my tongue and looked down.

"But?" He said sadly.

"I don't think I can stand preparing myself for the next fight. It seams like that's our true talent."

"Stop thinking of that and think of the great times."

"I tried Aus, I thought of Warped Tour and after we had sex the other day, watching Star Trek yet nothing works."

A tear fell from his eye. I was tired from hurting him like this. I felt my eyes getting coated with tears.

I ran my fingers through my hair. "I don't know why I came here honestly..." I whispered not looking at him. "Part of me just wanted to hold you and know everything to be okay."

"Everything will be okay," he said stepping closer to me, "give me another chance please."

"Second chances they don't matter, people never change," he scoffed and looked away.

"At least it's not my words this time." He said stepping away from me.

"Just remember this Lydia," he said with anger kind of glossing his eyes.

"I will always fucking love you, I wanted us to work. You were the one who walked away."

"I love you too!"

"Then what the fuck? Why are you pushing me away?"

"You cheated on me Austin! Don't act like the victim."

He sucked in his breath. "I didn't--"

"I saw you. I walked out of the bathroom, you didn't push her away until I walked to the fucking booth and poured the damn champagne on y'all's head!"

Frustrated tears escaped my eyes. I wanted to just give up.

'Dumbass stay,' my heart shouted at me.

I looked Austin. He was looking for the words to say. I shook my head. "I'm sorry, I probably just made things ten times worse for both of us. You deserve a good girl in your life. You deserve everything great. I love you but they say 'if you love something let I go,' that's what we have to do."

I turned on my heal and began to walk away.

"Fine," he said. He walked back into the house slamming the door. Every step was like a knife stabbing in my heart. I dialed a now familiar number. The phone rung then picked up.