Mistakes

Chapter 1: Good-bye

Hello Friends! I have arisen from the pits of hell to write this! Note: This chapter is not as graphic as some of the others will get (Chapter 2) but some of the themes and foreshadowing may trigger some readers. This is a Yaoi(Boy on boy) and if you don't like that sort of thing, don't read, I don't really want to get into a hate war in the comment section. I needed Uke Kaneki dying, with Seme Hide to save him, so here ya go. I'm sorry for what I did to this child. T^T Thanks and see you all next chapter!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Hide stands outside the door, listening to his boyfriend's gasping cries.

"Tsu-tsukiyama-S-san!" He gasps, calling out in lust(pain). Hide wishes it wasn't so, but he'd know that voice anywhere. It's the same voice that calls Hide's own name when is smaller partner is afraid, tired, cold or sad. Same stutter as well. No doubt about it. Kaneki is with Tsukiyama, doing "things-not-to-be-mentioned". Hide turned and walked away, overcome with disgust and betrayal. He didn't see Tsukiyama pull out, member covered in Kaneki's blood. He didn't hear Kaneki scream in agony as the much larger man rammed back into him. Neither man heard the tiny male's soft, pleading whisper.

"Hide."

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Hide returned many hours later, and found Kaneki making dinner.

"Hey 'Neki." His voice was hoarse.

"Hide! Your voice! Oh Kamii you sound awful. Let me get you some tea with honey. Go sit on the couch. What happened?" This is the boy Hide remembers, the boy he fell in love with. Beautiful, sweet and kind. Hide wishes he could still see that now, but all he hears is the lust(pain) filled voice as Kaneki calls out for a man that isn't him. Hide wants the tiny boy he once knew back.

Kaneki looks up as Hide enters the room. It's winter and very cold in their apartment. The small male is shivering like crazy, and Hide rushes to his side.

"You gotta take better care of yourself 'Neki. You'll catch cold." Kaneki clings to Hide like a koala to a tree and hums.

"Ok." He murmurs, exhausted by work. His eyes close, and he drifts off.

"Goodnight Little One." Hide whispers, carrying Kaneki to their bed.

Kaneki comes back into the living room, holding a mug in each hand. He hands Hide his tea, then sits beside him with his coffee.

"Something's bothering you. Spill." He demands tiredly, laying his head against Hide's shoulder.

"Long day?" Hide murmurs, pressing a kiss to the top of his boyfriend's head.

"You have no idea. Shuu has been bothering me for weeks, Kaneki~Kun this and Kaneki~Kun that. With American pronunciation to top it all off. "

"Bet you like that."

"What?"

"You know what I mean."

"Hide, I don't understand." Kaneki said, sitting up to look at him more clearly.

"I know."

"Know what?"

"Stop playing innocent with me damn it!" He moved suddenly, sitting fully up, surprising Kaneki, both men dropping their mugs. Neither cared, watching each other warily.

"I honestly don't understand. You're upset and rushing things, take a deep breath and explain things to me."

"Tell that to HIM!" Hide jumps to his feet, Kaneki shrinking back slightly. The hight difference between them is a little over a foot and the shorter male feels threatened.

"I'm breaking up with you Kaneki Ken. Enjoy the rest of your life with Tsukiyama you worthless cheater!" Kaneki gasps.

"Hide I-"

"Don't bother. Good-bye Kaneki." He walks out the door, guilt surging through him as he hears Kaneki hit the floor, hears his broken sobs. That guilt is crushed by anger when he sees Tsukiyama walk up the stairs and into Kaneki's apartment. (He doesn't hear Kaneki's screams) Tears fall as he breaks into a sprint.

"Good-bye."