POLARIZE (Phan)

jokes.

(Phil's POV)

I kept thinking about him. Dan. I was kind of scared of that, but I mostly didn't mind. I liked thinking about him. I liked to ask questions that only he knew the answer to. Questions like is he gay or bi? Or something else? What's his favorite colour? And one that just kept popping up: did the kiss mean something to him? It felt like it did. It felt like he surrendered to me the way I did him. But maybe that's all it was. A feeling. After all, that was just a question only he knew the answer to.

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Wednesday. The awkwardly spelt day, signaling the beginning of the end of an already long week. I dared to call it misunderstood but that word felt a bit much for just a weekday. For some reason the school seemed to be more alive that Wednesday. Why wouldn't they be? Wednesday's always a good day.

Gossip was growing like wild flower. Some said unimportant things like the choir teacher was dating the band teacher. I seriously doubt that because they have nothing in common besides their fascination of notes and keys, but I would never tell that to the girls that got great joy every time they passed each other in the hall. Other gossip included who the students thought John heard kissing in the bathroom, luckily none of the theories I've heard don't include me. I have heard some mention of Dan, but only because a bunch of people think he likes some blonde girl he stopped Emma from fighting, but I'm pretty sure he just doesn't like violence that much. He himself has only been in two fights at school. The first time was with a jock that was picking on him, and the second was with some random kid who got mad at Dan because he was hanging out with someone he didn't like. Now that I think about it it was probably Charlie. It wasn't that I was a stalker or anything, but there aren't really that many fights at my school so everyone knows when there is. Another bit of "information" I got was that Andre was apparently gay, but I'm not sure if he said that or if it's just another rumor. I mean he dresses in skinny jeans and button up shirts, so I guess that's enough to be considered gay in high school. Though I dress like that, too, so I guess I'm not really sure what makes him a target. I decided not to think about it for too long, as it was none of my business.

Dan sat next to me in first period today. He walked in and headed straight towards me. He sat down with a huff, seemingly frustrated, but I didn't mind. I think that meant he cared about me. I think. Why else would he sit there? He looked over at me and smiled, and I just smiled back. I'm pretty sure that means we're okay. Mrs.Brittan started babbling again. She was complaining about how "kids these days don't care about fine literature" and stuff. I surprisingly payed attention this time, getting tired of proving her wrong in my mind and then not being brace enough to say it. Dan did, but silently. Dan and I whispered little quips and comebacks to each other constantly, quietly giggling a bit when one of us said a particularly funny one. Last time I did that was in middle school, it was nice to have a friend I could be stupidly intelligent to. I used to try to do this with Louise, but she never understood the Shakespearean references and banter of late pop culture legends. I didn't really want to risk saying something Dan didn't understand, so I didn't actually make any of my geek jokes until halfway through the rant he whispered in my ear, "Me thinks the lady doth protests too much.".

All too soon the bell rung, and my body was suddenly a heavier burden to carry. "Alright then, off you go!" Mrs.Brittan spat, taking a seat at her desk once more, as if to make the order more final. I frowned slightly as Dan took everything off of his desk and into his arms. "Bye Phil." He smiled lightly, and looked at the almost empty classroom before giving me a quick kiss on my cheek and slowly walking away. My cheeks burned red and a smile spread across my face. "Bye, Dan" That definitely means something to him.

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