AM Thoughts

#15

everyone has their own dark side. and i have it too, but all i can say is i don't appreciate it existence at all. well, one thing that i hate the most about myself is my dark side. a side which i'm sure you don't want to see. and i really hope nobody can see it. but, i just can't control it. it comes whenever it wants to come, without warning. my family and friends are the last people that i really hope to see this dark side of me. but nooo, that's not how it works. the people that i love are the first to see (or i can say being forced to see) it. and i hate myself for that because i know they don't deserve it. i don't know if you get this but ughh idk 😐 it's just i think about this thing a lot and i don't know what to do. huhhh as much as i can see, you'll see my dark side if i really love you and if you're important in my life. i'm so sorry, and i know i'm such a jerk for that. but i can't escape from it. i try everyday, i swear but don't worry, i'll never give up on trying. never give up. it's for my own good too.

i wrote this at 1:57 am idk there are too many things on my mind huhhh