Extant

Chapter 14

We had finished the entire season of RBS, and Alex had cried through quite a bit of it. I did when I first watched it, and maybe a few times afterwards.

"It's so cute how they went to the dance, and even though they didn't get to dance there, they went back to the hospital and danced with each other." Alex said, wiping her eyes with her sleeve.

"I know." I said, adjusting the way I was sitting. We were close to each other, I sat up slightly and put my arm around her, giving her a light pat. "This used to be my go to thing when I wanted to cry."

"I can see why. Leo and Emma should have gotten back together." she said, sniffling. I smiled slightly, I couldn't help not to.

"I think they would have if it had a second season. They both helped each other in certain ways. I always hoped to find someone like Emma who loved him regardless of his cancer."

Alex sniffled one more time and looked up at me from her slumped position. She still had tears running down her cheeks. I think something started to click with her that happened to him.

"Do you think your cancer will come back..." she asked quietly.

That part is where I cried the most. It made me afraid of what was to come. He ended up getting a final PET scan and thy came across more cancer.

In his brain.

"I don't know. The future's a mystery." I said simply.

It's taken me a while to be okay with what's happened. I'm still not 100% over it, but who can blame me?

I've learned to stop fearing it.

"I love you. I'd still love you even if your cancer returned. I think I'll always love you."

My heart stopped. Not in a bad sense, but I was somewhat caught off guard. I wasn't expecting to hear that from anyone, let alone her.

I looked back down at her tear stained face.

From her eyes, down to her lips. They called my name, lured me in with their softness as bait. I gave in, not that I was trying to fight it for long.

It was short and sweet.

I definitely wanted more. I absolutely couldn't get enough of her touch. I wiped away the rest of her tears, still slightly caressing her cheek.

She connected our lips again, my hand still against her cheek. This time the kiss was longer, but not long enough to lose our breath.

"I love you too, even if you do have two legs." I said, smirking at her. She smiled widely and laughed.

She climbed onto my lap and hugged me. I put my arms around her and leaned forward, sitting up straighter. I held her tightly, embracing her as much as I could as if to make up with her.

"You don't know how I missed this." I said, still buried in the warmth of Alex Morgan. She pulled away and gave me another kiss.

"Oh trust me, I do." she said, putting her hands on the back of my neck and pulling me towards her.

It was obvious that she couldn't get enough of me either.

She was passionate, deepening this kiss unlike any of the others. I didn't know what I was doing, I had never made out with a person before.

I'd seen things in movies before, but I didn't how or when to execute them. I was caught off guard what she swiped her tongue against my lips.

I pulled away, my face bright red. She looked at me confused.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to go that fast." she said, retracting her arms while leaning back away from me. I shook my head and let out a held breath.

"No, it's not that, I've just. I've never... I haven't um..."

"Oh, Tobin... really?" she asked shocked. I nodded my head, my face heating up again. "I thought you had by now."

"Why would you think that?"

"Because you're beautiful. Who wouldn't want to lock lips with Tobin Heath?" she said grinning. She knew exactly what to say to make me feel better about myself.

It's like she validates me, even if I have one less limb than most people. I truly loved her for it.

"I haven't because I knew I didn't like guys, but that wasn't something you could say at school a few years ago. I thought I'd never date until college." I said, rubbing the back of my neck. I still had the sensation of her hands there.

"A lot changed after you disappeared..." she said, trailing off at the end. There was a pause before she continued.

"I missed you."

I looked into her eyes, they displayed a bit of hurt and longing. I can only imagine those same eyes appeared whenever someone said my name around her.

It amazed me how I was so oblivious to her mannerisms and sexuality. I hate to follow stereotypes, but I had absolutely no idea. She had always dated guys, that I know of, and I never gave it another thought.

"When did you know?" I said vaguely. She knew what I meant, however, and hesitated before replying.

"In about 8th grade. It hit me hard, and it was all I could think about. I was afraid, I didn't know what to do, other than hide it." she said, letting out a sigh.

In 8th grade, I remember her dating a guy named Justin. She had dated about three people that year, and I remember my heart dropped with every guy.

"I dated guys, because that's what pretty much everyone else was doing, getting a boyfriend or a girlfriend. I thought that I needed to stay dating in order to fit in." she said.

Middle school was honestly the worst thing I've been through, screw losing a leg.

No.

Having to find your place amongst other people your age is always stressful.

From the start of 6th grade, that was when I found out people can truly be mean to others, and not even care about it.

Hence why I knew that I couldn't tell anyone about my sexuality in school. She knew it as well as I did.

"I'm just glad that I can actually be who I am at school." she said, cutting through the quiet air. "Be who I am with you." she added.

I was at a loss of words.

All I could think about was that day back in science class. The day I fell in love with her. My mind was filled with the thoughts of her, and only her.

"I'm sorry I disappeared on you." I said quietly. I didn't realize that I had such an impact on her. "I definitely didn't want to hurt you."

"You were my best friend Tobin. Of course I would have been hurt. I couldn't imagine my life without you."

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A/N:

yes I'd like to order a relationship like this with extra love on the side thanks.