Saudade {Grayson Dolan}

Chapter 11

I woke up to my phone blowing up. Dms,
snapchats, texts all asking if grayson and i were a thing behind hayden's back. i would never move in on someone's boyfriend. that's something i'd hate myself for the rest of my life for.

i tried clearing it all up but i got harsh message after harsh message calling me a whore, slut, bitch, etc. i decided to facetime grayson and ask him about it. "hey." i said when he picked up. he shifted awkwardly and hesitantly said hello. "i've been getting a lot of messag-" i started before getting interrupted.

"so have i. look i promise i didn't start this." he promised. "well then who did?" i asked sternly. he looked down. "hayden." he mumbled under his breath. "use your big boy words." i raised my eyebrows and rolled my eyes. he huffed. "hayden." he said louder.

"can you get your girlfriend to get her attack dogs under control?" i hissed. "i'm sorry, i'll try." he said. "i've only been here a short while and people already think i'm a slut..." i sighed. "i'm sure they don't think that." he defended. "oh really? wanna see these messages? where they actually call me a slut and more?" i growled.

"i'm sorry..." he pouted. i began to feel bad. it's not his fault he chose a bitch. he didn't even know what he got himself into until after it was all said and done. this time i was the one who apologized. i told him i didn't mean to take it out on him. he accepted and understood that i was just under distress. he's so sweet and kind...

Rae woke up and i told her everything. She was pissed, as was I. I told her it'll turn out alright if we just ignore it and not pay it anymore attention. She nodded and messaged Ethan back.
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when monday rolled around i was very nervous to hear what everyone had to say about me. i knew it'd all be a bad, but i didn't know how bad. Until i walked into the doors of school and was already getting hazed. I was called Sloppy Seconds, trash, etc. My heart was aching, i felt bad and i didnt even do anything with grayson. Moments like this are when i wish mom was still around the most, she always knew what to do...

My chest was heavy, i was sad and mad all at once. I saw Hayden and stormed over to her. "what the fuck did i do to you?" i shouted. She gave me a smug look. "Im not sure what you mean, i didnt make you sleep with MY boyfriend." she lied. i scoffed, "i didnt sleep with your boyfriend hayden, even if i had, its not even like he wants to be with you anyways." i laughed in her face. "youre a manipulative, controlling, psychotic, ignorant bitch who makes up lies so he'll stay with you, and may i just say thats pathetic." i yelled. "almost as pathetic as your dad mourning over the wife he killed?" she fired back, like it was nothing. my jaw dropped. "thats what i thought." she laughed. i stood there, baffled. Grayson pushed through the crowd and hugged me. I couldnt cry, i was too surprised. How'd she even know. 

She looked at grayson, bewildered. "youre taking HER side? after everything she just said to me? you should be hugging me!" she cried to him. "did you not hear what you just said to her? everything she said was true, lose my number hayden." he demanded. i sunk into grayson, completely caught off gaurd. I see rae, ethan, and alex push through the crowd that was staring at us. Alex was PISSED. 

"First off, you werent there, you dont live with us, and you have no idea what youre talking about. And second off, our dad didnt kill her, she did! so shut the fuck up and get on with yourself." he yelled and she scurried off. Grayson let me go and Alex hugged me, then rae did. i dont know how to explain how i feel. Everyone stared.

so much for fresh start, huh dad?

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btw this is shitty sorry lmao