Saudade {Grayson Dolan}

Chapter 9

The following morning, I felt strange. Queasy almost. I couldn't help but think it may be because Damian. I tried pushing away the feeling, but it was stuck in my thoughts. Engraved.

I got ready and put on some black with white stripes Adidas joggers and a plain black crop top. I matched it with my Adidas superstars and straightened my hair. I brushed my teeth and put on deodorant. Then, I put on mascara with some matte nude lipstick and grabbed my bag.

I met Alex at the door and kissed Sammy goodbye and told him to be good. Alex and I ate on our way to the bus stop and met up with Rae. I told her all about the date last night. I even told her about how I'm feeling, and she doesn't get it either.

Eventually we got on the bus, where Ethan and Grayson got on shortly after. I was taken by surprise, though, when Grayson sat next to me. "Please, please tell me what I did." I rolled my eyes and looked ahead . "You sound pathetic." I  made the mistake of looking at him, and he looked so hurt. I sighed.

"I'm sorry, you didn't do anything. I'm just a bitch." I apologized.  "No, no, no. I didn't mean to make you think you're an bitch. I'm sorry..." he looked down. "Grayson." I said and he looked up. "I was being a bitch, and it's fine. You did nothing. You're a sweetheart and I'm sorry."

"It's fine." He shrugged. "I'm a sweetheart?" He asked with a big smile. I laughed lightly. "Yes, Grayson." I confirmed. "Aweee." He replied. We both smiled and looked eachother in the eye for an uncomfortably long time. I turned my head and coughed. He cleared his throat, turning his head to the front too.

"So.. how's Hayden?" I asked. He looked confused and then he hesitated. "Oh, she's great. We-We're great." He claps once with a slight smile. I force a smile. "I'm happy for you both." I politely lied. She's a dumb bitch, oops.

He looked down and my phone dinged. Damian messaged me.

Damian: Morning babe

Grayson saw and looked away quickly.

Babe?

I ignored it and said. "Uh, well..." I was interrupted by a screech. I look over at Ethan who's tickling Rae. I laugh. "Quit, Eth- Quit" she yelled/laughed. I smiled. Seeing her so happy is amazing.

I look over and Grayson's smiling too, probably thinking the same thing about his brother. I smiled more now. Grayson and I are alike in some ways.

Grayson looked away from them and became distant. In a trance. Dazed. And I wondered what he was thinking now.

We got to school and Damian met me at my locker. He kissed me and smiled. "Did you get my text?" He asked. "Yes I did. But I was too busy to answer." I lied. He nodded. "Okay." he smiled. I cleared my throat and looked around.

"Oh look, it's Rae." I pointed out. She came over and hugged me, saving me. For some reason, I couldn't get the same feeling with Damian that I had only a few hours ago. Now somethings just itching at me. I don't know what to do. Hell, I don't even know what's wrong with me.

"Hi Damian." Rae greeted. "Hello Rae." Damian smirked, greeting back. Uh okay? I ignored his smirk. Grayson approached us, "uh, hello Damian." Grayson held out his hand. Damian looked at it and then back up at Grayson. "Aye." Damian replied, ignoring grays hand rudely. I gave him a nasty look.

"What?" He asked looking at me. "Shake his hand." I demanded. "What? No." he argued. "Don't be a dick, shake his hand Damian." I sternly said. He groaned and shook Grayson's hand. I smiled. "Better."

We all walked to our classes and I took a seat, Damian and Grayson next to me. I began talking to Grayson about Hayden (even though I didn't want to) and I guess that pissed Damian off because he began ignoring me whenever I tried talking to him.

"Seriously? You're being childish." I snapped. "Well you're busy flirting with other guys." He snapped back. I laughed. "Flirting? Talking to guy about his girlfriend is flirting?" I laughed. "What's up with you?" I asked. "I just get jealous easily... I'm sorry." He apologized. I don't think this is going to work out...

Grayson faced the front and class continued on, as did school. And I witnessed Grayson and Hayden make out at least seven times in the halls today. Yes, seven. Like actually seven. Not just a few pecks, full on make out. Cant you do that somewhere else? I have no problem with affection but we are in the middle of school like ????

I got on the bus with Rae and I felt so happy seeing the expression change on Ethan's face when he saw Rae. He looked upset until he saw her, then he smiled big. Like she made his entire day or something. It was sweet.

Tomorrow's Saturday. Which means we are going to the fair tomorrow. I'm kinda excited, actually.