Letters to Leo (Completed)

~Seven~

Leo,

I had another bad day. Not even Gerard's sarcasm could make me smile. You were a bit distant, off with Luis doing drills. I joined Rafa and Dani instead, although it's not as fun as being with you. Did I do something wrong maybe? I wish I had the guts to approach you and ask, but I'm afraid. It seems to be a common theme for me lately... Fear. I can't do anything out of my comfort-zone without feeling it. I wish I was as confident as Dani, maybe then you'd show interest in me.
I overheard you talking to Luis about our dinner. You called it a 'great time with a good friend'. Does this mean I'm in the friend-zone now? Have I read way too much into your signals. Did I imagine everything? Hell, I'm so confused. As well as tired. And down. I wish I could go back home for a bit, maybe clear my head. I just want holiday to come a bit faster.
Leo... I think I've made it a bit too obvious I'm losing myself. I almost fought yesterday at the game against Leganes. Having my jersey pulled only added to my original frustration, and it snapped something inside me, causing me to lash out. You didn't even try to stop me either. What if I had hit him? I could've gotten suspension, but you seemed to not care, just watching from a few feet behind. Maybe you think I'm being childish and deserve a suspension. What am I saying?

Maybe I should visit the doctor...

Neymar <3