Letters to Leo (Completed)

~Ten~

Leo,

The comments and remarks about my sexuality won't stop. The whole team is in on it now. I laugh along to mask my pain, but I don't find it funny at all. I stood in front of my mirror this morning before practice asking myself why I turned out this way. Why am I a "damaged good" as Luis likes to say... Fuck Leo, has something ever hurt your feelings so much, you felt physical pain in your chest? Well that pain has burrowed deep down in mine and made itself a home, and no matter what I do, it won't leave me alone... I try to fight it, I try to save myself from this sick reality, but I only fall deeper in... Do my feelings even matter to you? To anyone? Please help me Leo...
My eyes plead for a safe place within yours, but all I come up with is a type of coldness. Not the kind of cold that makes me feel unwelcome, but the kind that makes me hate my own skin, makes me want to be someone else, just so you'll look at me different. I want your eyes to catch a different light when I'm around. I want them to be happy, but instead they're sarcastic, judging, discriminating, whether you notice it or not, it is still there, and it still hurts.

I love you...
Ney<3