Between shades of gray

Three//NOTE

Dear nobody;

I remember the look on his face when we went on our first date, I came down the stairs and his whole face lit up in awe and admiration. I wish he would always look at me like that but now we don't even talk...

He took me mini-golfing that night, we were both overdressed for the occasion but that made it all the more special. We had so much fun, cracking jokes and smiling the night away. How did we change? How did he turn from sweet to sour over one girl, one hookup that happened behind my god damned back...
No love song could describe how I felt, for I was truly broken. My heart shattered I swear, I am sure I heard the pieces falling apart as he looked me in the eyes and told me. I still remember as if it was yesterday, the way his touch felt on my skin just moments before tears burned my eyes and left salty tracks down my cheeks.
I wasn't mad, no.
I felt betrayed, alone, confused, unwanted.

Was I not enough?
How wasn't I enough?
How is giving someone your all, not enough?

Signed; Daisy 23/2/20