Between shades of gray

Five//NOTE

Dear Nobody;

Nobody is who I am to him now, all these sleepless nights dreaming of what we could still have but no avail, here I am alone wrapped up in a duvet with a cup of chai tea warming my cold hands as my nose runs and the tears streak down my face.
It makes me laugh, how happy we were to begin with. We were each others rock, each others forever and always but oh how everything changed, and the funny thing was, it changed so fast it was like a treadmill that was stuck on a high level and I couldn't stop it, I had no power over anything and thats what made me feel helpless, he teared up too which made me feel like maybe he did have some sympathy in him. But after being together for so long I knew he wasn't as cut up about it as I was, he just dropped me like a baby dropping its candy. Quick, painless and easy. But only for one side of the party, I was like the candy that was dropped. Ending up crushed, broken and a mess after we sat in their damn kitchen and talked about everything.
Metaphors suck.
Its late.
He sucks.
I'll never even be his mate.

Signed; Daisy 25/2/20