My name is Kenya. Growing up Ive always been confused about my sexuality. I would find girls and boys attractive. I would tell my parents and i would see them looking at each other with worried looks. One day they sat my down and talked to me about how i was feeling.. I was around ten at the time. They told me it was a phase and that I would grow out of it. I told them I wouldnt. Even so they explained that they would still love me no matter who i chose to love.
Im twenty years old now and Im still confused as ever. I have dated both girls and guys. I lost my virginity to a guy. My first time was painful but after that the sex was good. I still felt like something was missing. Thats when i met Shell. We started off as best friends first. We developed feelings for each other and things went from there. We are still together and have a baby on the way.
I honestly dont kno how to tell her that im also pregnant. She knows im bi of course and she is ok with that. What is going to hurt her the most is the lieing. She is going to hate me for keeping Shun a secret. The reason why i kept him a secret was because i wanted him all to my self. Shell and i have been in a relationship together for four years, and i have been faithful. Well that all changed six months ago when i met Shun. It was just something about him that drew me to him. No im not in love but there are feelings there.
Im in a fucked up situation. But im honestly happy! Im happy that I have two people that care about me. Im happy to have to babies on the way. I have the woman that im going to marry and I have a man that i could also fall in love with. I have the best of both worlds. Im very selfish right now but i plan to keep it that way.
No more lies! I have to tell both of them. Together.
I hope we can all get alone. I hope we can live in a big house together and raise the babies together.
