Dont Let Me Drown..

Ross coming home & "the dream"

Rockys pov we're waiting anxiously for Ross's results I'm pacing back and forth running my hands through my hair I'm literally terrified right now if I lose Ross Idk what I will do..

Doctor:family of Ross lynch?

Everybody stands up and runs to the doctor asking him everything okay

Doctor:well he's fine we closed it up again but he will need to stay home longer than he did this time maybe a week but you may go see him now

Rocky:thanks

We head to Ross's room and walk in thank God it's nothing serious rydel and I run over to him and hug him trying not to squeeze him but it's hard not to I was afraid of losing him..

Haley:thank God you're okay!

Ross:do I have to go back I don't want to!

Riker:you have to..mom won't let you stay home forever you know this you've already tried homeschool before..

Ross:I know..when do I go back to hell?

Rocky:In a week

Ross:oh..

Rocky:I know bud but mom would kill me if I let you stay home..

Ross:it's fine I understand

Haley:I love you

Ross:I love you to babygirl

Ross is allowed to go home he's in pain so he lays down time he arrived home he laid in haleys lap and she played with his hair and they both fell asleep Rocky carried Ross to his room and riker carried Haley to Ross's room they laid them down and walked out his room

*3am* Ross began to have a dream..about his bullies and etc.
*the dream*
"Kill yourself lynch"
"Nobody give a fuck about you"
"Slit your wrists"
"You're worthless ross"

Ross's pov: I run home before they can even catch up to me I'm home alone finally now I can give everybody what they want me dead..i walk up to the bathroom and find the painkillers I've hidden from Ratliff the last suicide attempt I almost succeeded but failed & I also find my razor I've been hiding for so long I heard my phone go off it was a text from Rocky "be home soon buddy had to go out and buy food for mom" I had to do this fast I know I'm going to be hurting the ones I love but at least I won't be suffering anymore I put the painkillers in my mouth and swallow them it was about 15 pills and then I put the razor to my wrist and slice it with all the pressure I could I began feeling dizzy and then I fell to the floor and I heard rockys voice screaming my name and crying..then everything went black..

"I'm sorry he died at time of arrival"

"N..no..HE..CANT BE DEAD..NOT NOW...NO!!!"

"R..oc..ky...h..e..s.g..o..n..e"

"N..OT MY BABY BROTHER!...NOT ROSSY! OH MY GOD YOU GOT TO TRY TO BRING  HIM BACK PLEASE!

"Rocky..its over.."

I'm looking at my family dumbfounded I try to put my hand on Rocky but it goes straight through him I try telling him I'm right here it's okay but he can't hear me..
"Rocky I'm here it's okay"

"I could've saved him we shouldn't have left him home alone!"

I seen Rocky being held onto by my mom and riker was holding rydel trying his best not to cry Ratliff felt guilty for not holding his twin so he he walked over and began to cry and hold Rocky to..

"Guys why are you crying I'm right here"

They all leave the hospital I of course follow but riker began drinking and being hateful to everyone..rydel began starving herself..ratliff just laid in his room all day..ryland just held mom and cried with her I then walk up stairs and only to see Rocky cutting himself..i tried to scream at him to stop but it was no use..
"Rocky stop put it down I'm right here"

"I wish I could've saved you rossy I miss you so much I'm sorry"

Then it hit me like a ton of bricks I was dead i seen a picture of myself and it said underneath it

"I'm loving memory of  Ross shor lynch loving brother,boyfriend,and musician" December 29th,1995 -October 14,2013" it hit me I caused my family this pain it's my fault all my fault I walk up stairs again and began to cry I didn't want them sad I wanted them happy that a burden like me was gone!
*end of dream*

Ross woke up screaming Haley grabs him and began playing with his hair

Haley:baby..shh what's wrong?..

Ross:dream..i..killed..myself..and caused y'all all to die slowly..riker was drinking and being hateful to everyone..rydel wasn't eating..ratliff was crying..Ryland and mom were holding each other crying...a..n..d..r..o..cky...was..cutting...

Haley:ross..baby...

Ross:I'm sorry!😢

Rocky:buddy what made you have a dream like that I'd never do that I might die without you here but never harm myself

Riker:yea and plus why would I start drinking?

Rydel:I wouldn't starve myself..

Ryland:but we would be heartbroken if you were gone..

Ross:i..love..yall..

All:we love you to

And everyone slept with Ross that night and he didn't wake up again screaming that night

Omg! Guys I cried while writing his dream would literally die! If Ross wasnt here anymore and I forgot to put a trigger warning at the beginning so this is the trigger warning if it triggered anybody I'm sorry 💔 anyways hope ya enjoyed and again stay strong and rocking 🤘💖