Possible trigger warning! (Just thought I'd put something in here about a possible trigger.)
We heard knocking on my door, so I kissed her cheek, interlaced our fingers, and went to open the door. Before I knew it Ally, Normani, and Dinah was barging in my house pointing fingers and yelling. I'm not going to lie I'm scared to death. I felt Camila loosen her already loose grip on my hand, but I squeezed her hand silently asking for her to not let go. I don't know what all they were saying because I felt like I had peed in my pants, but I didn't have to use the bathroom.
"WE HAVE BEE-, Lauren you bled through your pad." I did hear Dinah say that, though. Camila looked at me and we both had a feeling of what happened. I just had a miscarriage. Before Camila could say anything I almost ripped my hand from her and ran to the bathroom. I locked the door knowing that I was going to ugly cry. I heard footsteps going to the door and then knocking on the door asking me to come out. I can't do this. I grabbed a razor in my hand and was debating on using it when the door busted down. Who the hell kicked down the door?
"Lauren put the blade down." While in tears I yelled "WHY SHOULD I? I JUST LOST MY BABY AND I DIDN'T EVEN GET TO MEET THEM. I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE. THAT WAS THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME ALIVE ANYWAY. YOU SAW MY ROOM CAMZ. I'M BEYOND DEPRESSED, WAS RAPED, AND MY PARENTS ARE GETTING A DIVORCE. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO." I felt her arms wrap around me and one of her hands was rubbing my hair. "Lo, please put it down for me. I can't lose you." Listening to her I put the blade down and sobbed into her chest. She slowly lowered us down to a sitting position and started doing what we know best; comforting each other.
After I calmed down a little bit she helped me up and dried my tears. Intertwining our fingers she looked at me with a look saying do you want to talk to them and I slowly nodded. We walked downstairs and I was tackled into a group hug. "We're sorry Lauzer. We had no idea."
-LK
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