Journal by a Broken Heart

Fifth Entry

"Fate, pwede ba akong manligaw?"

I was taken aback by his question. Oo, nagpaparamdam siya, pero iba pa rin pala talaga kapag sinabi na niyang gusto niya akong ligawan.

After we bumped into each other, hiningi na niya yung number ko. We constantly texts, calls, and even chats.

He became my ultimate crush. He is the epitome of a guy every girl dreams of.

Yung tipong mabait, maalalahanin, gentleman, may sense of humor at matalino. Bonus na yung maganda yung porma tsaka itsura.

"I... I..." I can't seem to complete my sentence. Those fucking five words rendered me speechless.

His eyes give it all. Hope and fear.

"Hindi naman kita minamadali. I'm just telling you that I want to court you."

"Why?" It's just what I can utter.

"Simply because I want to be your boyfriend because I love you. Already." He confessed. "And I wanna show you how much I love you, everyday. So please let me."

My eyes widen in schock, my heart beats so loud it's defeaning me. All I can hear is the loud thump of my heart and his soothing voice. The rest seems lifeless, they are just our backgrounds.

"Pero di ako madaling ligawan. It will really take a long time bago kita sagutin." I warned him. And it's true. I wanna make sure of his feelings for me.

"It's okay. I can and I will endure it all. All for your sweet yes."

Entry # 5:

It's not about the length of the 'ligawan days' that counts, it's the whole essence of the relationship that really counts.

I thought a love that stand still in times' test can endure all. I guess that's my fucking mistake.

Mali palang sabihin na sobrang minahal ka niya dahil lang niligawan ka niya for a long time. Masasabi mo lang palang mahal ka talaga niya kung di ka parin niya nagagawang lokohin ka in the long run.

#TestOfTime