A/N No unfortunately I'm not back yet, I won't be for about two weeks ( wow a sad song just came on and now I'm about to cry... emotional much? 😂) anyways so yea I guess I'm doing okay. Well no I'm not okay... it's getting worse to the point where now I don't even know how I feel anymore. When people ask if I'm okay I say yes but I'm really not. It's like I'm emotionless, I want to tell people how I feel but I can't because there's just no words of how I feel. I finally figured out why I cry at night and that's because I'm trying to show all the anger and sadness I have in me that words can't express. I will be going to the doctors to get medication for my depression ( by the way I feel comfortable sharing all of this because it's real life) and I will be getting a new counselor because the one I have now isn't really helping. And I can't talk to my school counselor because my mom works at my school and my school counselor is allowed to tell her so not a good choice. I've been feeling like everything is my fault even though it's really not and that no one is there for me but they really are. And also thank you for 1k reads when I saw that i was honestly speechless. - Izzy 💜
