Undo & Redo

Age 18 1/2

I'm sorry in Advance if there is any misspelled words or grammar mistakes, I'll fix them when I get the chance to.

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You know what I dislike?

Going to school... I hate it... not only it's because of class and stuff. It's also because I have to be in multiple classes with her...

Is this how it feels?... to loose someone so precious to you?... well if it is. I hate it.

I hate this feeling that I know I screwed my whole relationship with her from a stupid rumor. This is what the cause is then... a heartbreak from me... and a heartbreak, and a bruised arm from her.

IM SUCH A IDIOT!

I small my face into my pillow as I yell loudly into the pillow. My scream was muffled of course so it wouldn't be too loud.

Why do I always screw things up? Why can't I do anything right?! Why am I made like this?! Why can't things go back to where it was from the beginning?!

This is so stupid to be arguing with myself...

I get off from my bed and grab some clothes and get changed. After doing what I usually do, I walk out of my room with my book bag and my phone and walk downstairs. My mom was was waiting for me in the living room, looked a bit worried.

"Jackson can we talk for a minute?" She asks softly as she taps her foot against the floor.

"I have nothing to talk about.." I say and walk towards the door. But I was stopped as my mom grabbed a hold of me. I turn my head towards her to see her with a serious face.

"This is serious Jackson I'm going to talk to you wether you like it or not." My mom says a bit glaring at me.

I'm going to be honest here... that was a bit scary to me.

I let out a sigh of defeat. "Fine." I say and roll my eyes. I walk towards the couch and sit down, leaving my book bag on the floor. I lean against and hand rest. "What do you want to talk about?"

"You." My mom says sternly. "Why where you yelling earlier? Are you okay? Is it about Jude?" She asks and quirks an eyebrow at me.

"Why do you want to know so bad." I say and scoffs. "What if it is about that, so what? Get out of my personal life. You have your life and I have mine. Don't try to get into mine like I'm a toy."

"Jackson Larson! Don't you dare talk to me like that! I am your mother! I am here to be by your side, not to be against you! So just cooperate with me a for minute then you can go back to whatever you do with your friends!" My mom yells back at me.

Well dang... that shut me up.

"We all make mistakes in life, but I'm worried about you Jackson. You are going out at night to who knows where and coming back so late! You smell like smoke and I hate it! You have such an attitude which I really don't like! It reminds me of your father! And I'm pretty sure you and I don't want you to become him. Yes you made a mistake by just thinking without actually having real evidence, but you just got to get over it and move on! You can't just hang out with negative people and expect to have a positive life! That's not how it works around here Jackson!"